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(00:00:00) Your YouTube transcript will appear here (00:00:00) one of my main areas of focus was parent (00:00:03) states of mind and what that means is (00:00:06) you can dive into the mind of you as a (00:00:08) parent with something called the adult (00:00:10) attachment interview and with the most (00:00:13) robust power over anything else even (00:00:16) someone watching you at home for a year (00:00:18) we can predict how your child will be (00:00:20) attached to you whether it's securely or (00:00:22) non-se securely (00:00:24) and that security of attachment to your (00:00:27) child essentially predicts all sorts of (00:00:29) things like your child emotional (00:00:31) resilience their capacity for mutually (00:00:33) rewarding relationships with others we (00:00:36) call it an attachment stance or (00:00:37) attachment strategy and security is what (00:00:40) you want to aim for as best you can the (00:00:42) great news from this field of attachment (00:00:45) research which I'm trained in is that it (00:00:48) isn't what happened to you that will (00:00:51) determine if your child is securely (00:00:53) attached to (00:00:54) you it's how you've made sense of what (00:00:58) happened to you (00:01:01) and the importance of that finding (00:01:02) cannot be overstated in other words (00:01:06) people sometimes come to me and say oh (00:01:08) terrible things happen to me in my (00:01:10) childhood and I'll never get over it (00:01:12) I'll never be a good parent I'll go wait (00:01:13) a second wait a second the research (00:01:15) shows that I know you're concerned about (00:01:18) that but if you can make sense of your (00:01:20) childhood experiences and how they (00:01:22) affected you you can liberate yourself (00:01:25) from perpetrating that which was done to (00:01:28) you onto your kids so that I wrote up in (00:01:31) a book with my daughter's preschool (00:01:32) director Mary Hartzel called parenting (00:01:34) from the inside out and once I wrote (00:01:37) that book which starts with the science (00:01:39) of attachment and now we'll talk about (00:01:41) the ess's I could write all the other (00:01:43) five or six or whatever parenting books (00:01:45) I've written where I always say start (00:01:49) with parenting from the inside out (00:01:50) because that's what the research shows (00:01:51) make sense of your own childhood (00:01:54) experiences first yeah and then figure (00:01:57) out what do I do with my kids yeah ain't (00:01:59) that the truth when that book was first (00:02:00) coming out one of my first teachers is (00:02:02) Barry brazzleton a pediatrician back a (00:02:05) while ago he passed away recently and (00:02:08) you know when I said to Barry when (00:02:10) should we give this to parents he said (00:02:13) right away even when they're pregnant (00:02:15) and I'm not sure pregnancy is the best (00:02:16) time but (00:02:18) definitely yeah yeah you you want to (00:02:20) read it so that being said you know as (00:02:23) an educator and as a you know therapist (00:02:26) for families what I needed to do is take (00:02:29) this entire field of attachment and make (00:02:32) it really understandable not just for (00:02:34) the academics I was working with but for (00:02:36) parents so basically my summary of the (00:02:39) entire field of attachment comes down to (00:02:41) four S's and here they (00:02:44) are when you get the first three S's and (00:02:47) if you don't get them any of them the (00:02:50) parent recognizes there's a rupture (00:02:52) there's a (00:02:53) disconnection and readily and reliably (00:02:56) makes a repair so there's no such thing (00:02:59) as perfect parent par ing is only (00:03:01) showing up and being present as a parent (00:03:03) with good intention and being aware (00:03:06) being mindful so I say that because (00:03:09) people freak out oh my I haven't been (00:03:10) doing it if you haven't been doing it (00:03:12) fine now you can make a repair it's (00:03:15) never too late to make a repair so (00:03:17) that's the important place to start and (00:03:19) if you can be kind to your inner (00:03:21) experience because we're all coming (00:03:23) through a hard road yeah you know and (00:03:25) parenting is one of the hardest things (00:03:26) to do in general and these days (00:03:29) especially so the first s is the word (00:03:33) seen s en and when when a child feels (00:03:36) seen it isn't just that you're using (00:03:38) your eyes to see their behavior it means (00:03:41) you're using what I call a mindsight (00:03:43) lens to see their feelings what has (00:03:45) meaning for them what was their (00:03:47) intention what were they remembering the (00:03:50) inner nature of their mental lives is (00:03:52) what I mean by the word seen and it's (00:03:55) very clear from the research parents who (00:03:57) take the time and develop the skills (00:04:00) because they learnable skills to see the (00:04:02) inner life of the child have children (00:04:05) who develop secure attachment okay (00:04:08) second s soothed what this means is your (00:04:13) child could be distressed they've gone (00:04:15) through what I call a window of (00:04:16) Tolerance they're in chaos they're in (00:04:18) rigidity they're shut down you know (00:04:20) those moments they're not in this kind (00:04:21) of integrated flow and at that moment (00:04:24) you yourself because of a set of neurons (00:04:26) in you called mirror neurons which (00:04:28) should have been called I think sponge (00:04:29) neurons you sponge in your kids's (00:04:31) distress so their distress may make you (00:04:33) distressed so if you don't have your (00:04:37) presence there where you're receptive (00:04:38) you may become reactive even as they (00:04:40) become reactive which just amplifies all (00:04:42) the (00:04:44) reactivity so soothing your child is (00:04:47) more than oh let me just you know try to (00:04:50) put a Band-Aid on their wound it's (00:04:51) really giving them the comfort that (00:04:54) allows them to see that I as your (00:04:56) son can be as distressed as I can be (00:05:00) and you don't leave (00:05:02) me you stay present with me you're able (00:05:05) to hold a space for my (00:05:09) distress and in that connection you (00:05:12) establish ah my nervous system which is (00:05:15) immature is able to calm down and that's (00:05:17) what we mean by (00:05:19) soothing don't forget there's no such (00:05:21) thing as perfect parenting you may not (00:05:22) see your child all the time you we don't (00:05:25) don't sue them all the time but to be (00:05:27) able to do that and say wow that pushed (00:05:29) my hot button I was having a hard time (00:05:31) when you were screaming yelling like (00:05:33) that let me try to come back and soothe (00:05:35) you I'm so sorry I couldn't do it then (00:05:36) you can make a repair repair repair and (00:05:39) the the fourth the third s before the (00:05:42) fourth of security the third s is safe (00:05:45) so safe of course is keeping your child (00:05:48) protected from injury but it's also not (00:05:50) being a source of emotional (00:05:53) fear where you know and I say this in (00:05:56) all my books there are times when you (00:05:58) know I would flip my lid and start (00:06:00) screaming or say ridiculous things or (00:06:02) whatever and I would terrify my kids I (00:06:04) had to make a repair after that kids are (00:06:08) meant to be kept safe by their (00:06:09) attachment figures their parents and if (00:06:12) we have unresolved trauma or unresolved (00:06:14) loss the research is very clear we're (00:06:16) more prone to doing things that we don't (00:06:19) even want to do yeah that are (00:06:22) unintentional that terrify our (00:06:25) kids and even when we alter our own (00:06:28) State cuz we're flipping out back and be (00:06:30) terrifying if we get drunk that can be (00:06:31) terrifying we're yelling at our spouse (00:06:33) that can be terrifying and other ones (00:06:35) that are obvious like abuse neglect yeah (00:06:38) you know so there's a wide range of what (00:06:40) creates non-safety and I don't mean a (00:06:43) kid wants ice cream before dinner you (00:06:44) say no and they go you make me mad you (00:06:47) make me I want I no you don't this is (00:06:49) not about just giving them everything (00:06:52) they want it's about not terrorizing (00:06:53) them yeah setting limits is extremely (00:06:56) important for kids when they have this (00:06:58) and when they're not there a repair made (00:07:00) when there's a rupture in a reliable and (00:07:04) relatively um rapid (00:07:06) way then a child develops security which (00:07:09) is this sense of wholeness this sense of (00:07:11) resilience this sense of I can do this (00:07:14) and you know we're still on a life of (00:07:16) you know do or die you know in this (00:07:17) world outside the womb so no matter how (00:07:20) great our parenting is life is still (00:07:22) hard but security of attachment gives (00:07:25) the best kind of (00:07:27) resilience that we can give our kids and (00:07:30) the great news is that if you've had a (00:07:32) really hard childhood (00:07:34) yourself dive into parenting From the (00:07:36) Inside Out Mary and I wrote that to be a (00:07:39) big (00:07:40) hug and it's a guide to saying how do I (00:07:43) actually make sense in my life do that (00:07:45) book it's a workbook yeah basically and (00:07:48) the great news is and this is you know I (00:07:50) was trained as a narrative scientist (00:07:52) when our narrative process literally (00:07:54) makes sense in the two ways that we mean (00:07:56) it makes sense meaning what's the (00:07:57) logical way my childhood affected me (00:08:00) but makes sense as in I sense my body I (00:08:03) feel these things you're able to (00:08:05) integrate memory into things that were (00:08:07) terrifying before and you integrate it (00:08:10) and you make sense of your life and (00:08:11) that's how you come to allow your (00:08:13) personality to relax and stop being a (00:08:15) prison become more like a playground it (00:08:17) allows you to be more receptive with (00:08:19) kind intention so intention for sure (00:08:22) that's kind um and that's how we want to (00:08:24) bring our presence to our kids and I (00:08:27) love that Dan I mean you just set the (00:08:29) stage for (00:08:30) a second conversation at some point in (00:08:32) the future because I'd love to dive into (00:08:34) parenting but I think that's really (00:08:36) helpful you want to help your kids feel (00:08:39) seen soothed safe and when you can do (00:08:43) that they will also feel (00:08:46) secure if we look out across the world (00:08:49) today there appears to be a lot of (00:08:54) unhappiness a lot of struggle and a lot (00:08:57) of (00:08:58) division based upon what you know about (00:09:03) human beings and our inner (00:09:06) worlds why do you think there's so much (00:09:08) struggle in the world and are you (00:09:10) optimistic about the (00:09:12) future I think there's an incredible (00:09:15) potential that we as a human family have (00:09:19) with awareness to make intentional (00:09:22) choices that are different from what we (00:09:25) do on (00:09:26) automatic and so that's why I actually (00:09:29) have a deep sense of hope a realistic (00:09:31) hope an active hope that is based on (00:09:35) scientific reasoning and based on (00:09:37) clinical practice and just being a human (00:09:41) thinking about where have we gotten (00:09:42) ourselves that I'm very much optimistic (00:09:46) and the reason even I think to dive (00:09:48) deeply into your important question of (00:09:49) why is because if we can figure out (00:09:53) accurately what the truth of why is then (00:09:56) we can figure out how to work with that (00:09:59) why in a very productive and effective (00:10:01) way so here's what I think is going on (00:10:04) if you go back in time and you basically (00:10:07) look at what has happened with our human (00:10:11) species how we've evolved in modern (00:10:14) times we became number one mammals so we (00:10:17) became very social number two we became (00:10:20) humans which our formal name is homo (00:10:23) sapiens sapiens the seir is the word for (00:10:27) the The Knowing so not only do we know (00:10:30) we know we know which is where the hope (00:10:32) lies because we can actually take this (00:10:35) capacity for awareness for (00:10:37) self-awareness and awaken ourselves from (00:10:39) automatic pilot but what is the (00:10:42) automatic pilot we've gotten into when (00:10:45) you follow human evolution one way to (00:10:47) understand it is that we (00:10:50) survived based on in Group versus (00:10:53) outgroup distinctions so he said if (00:10:56) you're in my cave you're my family (00:10:59) you're my friend (00:11:00) we're going to protect each other we're (00:11:02) going to cooperate collaborate we're (00:11:04) going to get some creative unions that (00:11:07) are allowing us to not only survive but (00:11:10) we Thrive that's beautiful we're an (00:11:12) incredibly collaborative (00:11:15) species (00:11:17) but if we deem that you're in cave B not (00:11:21) the cave a members where we live and (00:11:23) there's the cave B members if we can (00:11:27) discern that these are not us we can (00:11:30) keep them away and they won't threaten (00:11:32) us we can keep our stuff once we start (00:11:35) accumulating stuff and in this (00:11:37) distinction then we could keep The (00:11:39) Outsiders out the Insiders in and if we (00:11:42) needed to unfortunately we could shut (00:11:45) off our circuitry of empathy and (00:11:47) compassion that we're using for the in (00:11:48) group shut it off and sometimes injure (00:11:52) if not kill the out group yeah and (00:11:55) that's basically human evolution in the (00:11:57) shortest version you'll ever hear but if (00:12:00) you now expand the (00:12:02) population where there's an experience (00:12:04) of (00:12:05) insufficiency where people are wanting (00:12:08) to own land own things and you have (00:12:11) modern (00:12:13) culture unlike landbased indigenous (00:12:16) cultures that teach the relationship of (00:12:20) you as a human to the land is essential (00:12:22) yeah the relationship of you to (00:12:24) Generations that came before your (00:12:26) ancestors and generations that are (00:12:28) coming in the future The Descendants (00:12:31) they're all a part of who you are (00:12:32) there's an expanded definition of (00:12:35) yourself that larger self connected to (00:12:38) all people and to all of nature starts (00:12:41) to become very narrowed down into what (00:12:44) you can call a solo self this isolated (00:12:47) separate solo self in indigenous (00:12:49) teachings is something to be watching (00:12:52) out for that as they say be careful of (00:12:54) the vulnerability of thinking you're a (00:12:55) separate self but in modern culture we (00:12:58) take that word self (00:13:00) and we equate it with the individual (00:13:02) yeah and if you like me grew up in (00:13:05) modern culture you'd say of course self (00:13:07) means in individ individual but if self (00:13:09) is really looked at as a center of (00:13:11) experience it doesn't mean it has to be (00:13:13) your skin incase body it could be your (00:13:15) relationships with your family with your (00:13:17) friends with all of humanity and even (00:13:19) all of nature so we have a relational (00:13:21) self and we have an inner self sure you (00:13:24) have a body so I think what's happened (00:13:26) is this inner self being equated with (00:13:29) the only self that matters even if it's (00:13:32) about a plural inner self like just my (00:13:34) family or people who are like me my (00:13:36) similar race or nationality or religion (00:13:39) all the ways we divide ourselves up (00:13:42) that's created this separation of people (00:13:44) from each other that leads to genocides (00:13:47) Wars continual fighting social injustice (00:13:50) and (00:13:51) racism and it even has us differentiate (00:13:55) ourselves from other species so for (00:13:57) building a factory to get more stuff for (00:13:59) in group we don't care if we destroy the (00:14:02) environment around the factory because (00:14:04) we're building the stuff to get the (00:14:05) money that we want and so we start (00:14:08) destroying Earth and this is what I (00:14:10) think is happening this solo self viw (00:14:14) has been I think a source of all the (00:14:16) pandemics we face not just causes for (00:14:19) the viral pandemic but these assaults on (00:14:22) climate and assaults on our Humanity I (00:14:25) really appreciate those answers (00:14:28) um you know in your in your first (00:14:31) response to my question (00:14:33) about optimism and the state of the (00:14:37) world I really felt that there's there's (00:14:40) almost two choices we can make as humans (00:14:43) we can either be (00:14:45) intentional about our lives and create (00:14:47) the lives that we want or we can be (00:14:51) reactive and so you know I've been (00:14:54) absorbed in your uh previous book uh (00:14:56) interconnected for the last few weeks (00:14:58) which I really enjoyed reading thank you (00:15:01) um (00:15:04) and I I'm sort of think a lot about like (00:15:07) who are we really as humans because as (00:15:10) you say about ingroup and outgroup it's (00:15:12) fascinating because it seems to be (00:15:14) certainly the online world at least (00:15:16) seems to really drive people into (00:15:18) choosing their tribe who actually are we (00:15:22) can we transcend some of our base level (00:15:25) patterns of trying to other other people (00:15:28) so if you don't mind I just want read a (00:15:30) phrase that you you wrote in in in your (00:15:33) book the world is not always kind not (00:15:37) always compassionate not always (00:15:40) integrative our human history of (00:15:43) survival based Evolution leads us (00:15:45) towards (00:15:46) tribalism and adding to this (00:15:50) tendency is our genetically inherited (00:15:53) neurally mediated socially reinforced (00:15:58) propensity toward (00:15:59) ingroup and outgroup evaluation (00:16:03) yeah so first of all I think there's a (00:16:06) beautiful bit of writing there thank you (00:16:09) but you know who are we like at our core (00:16:12) who are we are we this reative species (00:16:15) who's just trying to protect what's ours (00:16:18) and make sure that we're okay and the (00:16:20) people around us are okay or are we this (00:16:23) more loving compassionate species who (00:16:27) wants to thrive but as I thrive everyone (00:16:31) around me also thrives as well yeah (00:16:33) beautiful well thank you for uh pointing (00:16:36) out that passage and um that was a a (00:16:40) challenging and Incredibly um you know (00:16:43) powerful experience to write that book (00:16:45) to try to articulate coming from a (00:16:48) culture of (00:16:49) individualism why I thought (00:16:51) individualism was actually the Splinter (00:16:54) in the soul of the modern psyche that (00:16:57) was making us limp forward in life so (00:17:00) the optimism I feel is embedded in that (00:17:03) um not only passage you wrote but your (00:17:06) response to it which is that yeah I do (00:17:08) think with (00:17:10) intentionality with an Awakening of the (00:17:13) mind to the lie that it's been told (00:17:18) which is that the center of experience (00:17:20) that we use the word self to (00:17:23) indicate when that is being told to us (00:17:26) as being the individual that's a lie (00:17:30) of course you want the center of (00:17:31) experience to be something you put (00:17:33) energy into take care of it protect it (00:17:36) nurture it allow it to thrive (00:17:39) absolutely and here's the strange (00:17:42) thing if self is thought of as an (00:17:45) identical term a synonym for (00:17:48) individual we are (00:17:51) sunk so the reason I spent all those (00:17:54) years writing that book interconnected (00:17:56) was a plea to our fellow human human (00:17:59) beings to (00:18:01) say why can't we wake up to the (00:18:05) possibility that modern culture has been (00:18:08) a case of mistaken (00:18:10) identity that by telling you okay you (00:18:15) know rangan who you are is you are just (00:18:18) that body you're in or Dan I'm just this (00:18:20) body and then uh do what you can to make (00:18:23) sure you're keeping the body healthy and (00:18:25) happy and if you want to get connected (00:18:27) to other bodies called your family great (00:18:29) and your friends great and protect them (00:18:31) and nourish them but be careful of the (00:18:34) ones that are not you you know whether (00:18:36) that's a not you human or a not you (00:18:38) species it's all about you you you you (00:18:41) you where you is considered your body or (00:18:45) your body plural you know people in this (00:18:46) in group so my hopefulness actually (00:18:50) especially after writing intraconnected (00:18:52) was you know when I had been in a forest (00:18:55) and you know with some colleagues alone (00:18:58) for 3 days days and then had this (00:19:00) experience of incredible openness of my (00:19:03) identity to being a part of the force (00:19:05) and aspect of all of nature when my (00:19:08) colleagues came out and said oh we were (00:19:10) interdependent and interconnected and (00:19:11) interwoven all the (00:19:14) iner prefixes to those (00:19:17) terms which means between it came time (00:19:20) for my turn to speak and I said I really (00:19:25) understand what you're saying but for me (00:19:27) the experience was not interconnected Ed (00:19:29) I was um I don't know I was like and I (00:19:33) and I couldn't find the word so I said I (00:19:35) was intraconnected there was a (00:19:36) connectedness within the hole that this (00:19:39) body called Dan was just a part of and (00:19:42) the body didn't disappear my identity as (00:19:45) Dan didn't disappear I knew there was a (00:19:47) Dan but I knew I was as much the trees (00:19:49) and the creek as this body called Dan so (00:19:52) I said interconnected and when I went (00:19:54) back to the place where we had (00:19:55) technology and I could type out some of (00:19:57) my notes from the three days quote alone (00:19:59) in the forest which is really more like (00:20:01) all one in the (00:20:02) forest the word processor would not (00:20:05) allow me to type interconnected without (00:20:07) changing it to interconnected and I (00:20:08) realized there was no word in English (00:20:10) for this connectivity within the whole (00:20:14) so the notion that yourself is yes in (00:20:17) your body and also your relationships (00:20:20) with other people even those that don't (00:20:23) have the same skin color religious (00:20:24) beliefs nationality geographical (00:20:27) location all that stuff that you are (00:20:29) part of a larger Human family and then (00:20:32) if you expand that relational self even (00:20:34) larger to expand it out to I'm all of (00:20:38) living (00:20:39) beings so that when you see a tree you (00:20:42) don't look at it as oh something I'm (00:20:43) just going to cut down I don't care but (00:20:46) you see it almost like you would see (00:20:47) your (00:20:48) leg and you wouldn't cut down your leg (00:20:51) so then when you start feeling that you (00:20:53) realize wow okay I am the Earth and I (00:20:56) say I am using the word I in a broad (00:20:59) sense so people wanted to know well can (00:21:01) I hold on to the individual that's me (00:21:03) and I go yeah they said well I don't (00:21:05) need to get rid of me I said no no no no (00:21:07) the idea is integration is you (00:21:08) differentiate your link so this is where (00:21:10) another word came up yeah me plus we is (00:21:13) this funny word in English mu mwe and (00:21:17) what's funny about that is people (00:21:20) realize they don't have to choose (00:21:21) between an inner self and a relational (00:21:23) self you are both and mu is just a fun (00:21:26) way to remind ourselves that we are both (00:21:30) a me and a we so so you can (00:21:32) be working on yourself expressing (00:21:35) yourself authentically trying to um (00:21:40) Master certain passions and pursue (00:21:43) certain things but that doesn't have to (00:21:46) come at the expense of the people around (00:21:47) you yeah you can do that (00:21:51) and you can support the people around (00:21:53) you other people don't have to lose in (00:21:56) order for you to win mhm (00:22:00) beautifully said and that's one of the (00:22:02) problems I think and that's one of the (00:22:03) things I feel that I developed as a (00:22:07) child is this idea (00:22:10) that which I've I feel I've mostly if (00:22:13) not all let go of now through you know (00:22:16) practices we can talk about perhaps but (00:22:20) this this realization (00:22:22) that I can win and people around me can (00:22:25) win yeah which is very freeing it's very (00:22:28) liberating so couple of questions which (00:22:31) and some of these I guess relate to your (00:22:33) upcoming book personality and wholeness (00:22:35) and therapy which I haven't read yet and (00:22:37) I'm looking forward to (00:22:38) reading but this idea of intentionality (00:22:43) are we living an intentional life or a (00:22:45) reactive life some of that I imagine (00:22:48) comes down to how you were raised as a (00:22:50) child if you were raised in an (00:22:53) environment of danger if you raised in (00:22:56) an environment where safety wasn't (00:23:00) felt you may have developed the uh world (00:23:04) viw that the world's not safe okay I (00:23:08) need to make sure I sort myself out (00:23:12) whereas if you were raised in an (00:23:14) environment (00:23:15) of uh of love and safety and there were (00:23:19) people around you were there to support (00:23:21) you your world of you is that Hey listen (00:23:24) world's good world's safe like it's cool (00:23:27) like I I I can win people around me can (00:23:29) win right so that that childhood piece (00:23:33) must be important I would imagine I know (00:23:35) you've written so many books on (00:23:36) parenting and you have some I'd love to (00:23:38) know some of your advice for parents (00:23:40) because the 4S's framework I think is (00:23:42) really really powerful but perhaps can (00:23:44) you just speak to that idea first how (00:23:45) much does your childhood upbringing (00:23:49) influence whether you live life (00:23:52) intentionally or reactively yeah so (00:23:57) having just finished this 20- year (00:23:58) project called personality and wholeness (00:24:00) and therapy um I'm going to try to make (00:24:03) this as uh succinct and directed toward (00:24:07) your question as I can but let's just (00:24:09) start with the fundamental view that you (00:24:12) know when your body is developing in the (00:24:15) womb and as a fetus you're growing you (00:24:19) are developing a nervous system part of (00:24:22) the influence on how that nervous system (00:24:23) would be shaped is your genetics you (00:24:26) know determining that you're a human and (00:24:27) not an elephant for example (00:24:29) but also shaping in part certain (00:24:31) propensities of your nervous system some (00:24:34) are just random experiences that happen (00:24:36) during gestation of how your nervous (00:24:38) system develops so now let's come to the (00:24:41) moment where you're (00:24:43) born you are born and at the moment (00:24:45) you're born you have something called (00:24:47) temperament and in this book I actually (00:24:50) proposed with my colleagues nine (00:24:52) different kinds of temperament so so (00:24:55) then depending on the temperament for (00:24:58) example (00:24:59) it looks like about a third of the (00:25:02) population has a temperament which (00:25:04) pushes towards agency where you really (00:25:06) want to make sure you're asserting your (00:25:07) embodied empowerment you're having a (00:25:09) sense of Competency and if it's (00:25:11) frustrated you feel irritated angry (00:25:15) Furious even that (00:25:17) temperament may make your experience of (00:25:20) being in the world uh when you're (00:25:22) talking about how is it can you give to (00:25:23) the larger good one way especially now (00:25:27) we're getting to the second layer if (00:25:28) your attachment is not (00:25:31) secure then you'll have a kind of a more (00:25:33) rigid way in which temperament turns (00:25:36) into (00:25:37) personality and then your anger may come (00:25:40) out more readily and you'll be more (00:25:42) likely to want to have your own things (00:25:43) done your own way this kind of thing (00:25:45) depending on there's lots of variations (00:25:47) that I talk about in that book but just (00:25:49) say that anger is your emotion that's (00:25:52) generated when you feel threatened and (00:25:54) we'll talk about that reactive State (00:25:57) versus what you're calling the (00:25:58) intentional state which is kind of (00:26:00) receptive open (00:26:02) State another group is more the bonding (00:26:05) group and that temperament makes you (00:26:07) more oriented towards having separation (00:26:09) distress and sadness so when you're (00:26:12) getting reactive you might get filled (00:26:15) with this distress about I'm not (00:26:16) connected I'm not connected because your (00:26:18) drive is for relational connection so (00:26:21) that would be a different way especially (00:26:22) with non-secure attachment you know then (00:26:25) you have a more rigid way your (00:26:27) personality is and you get more (00:26:30) threatened with a sadness and separation (00:26:33) distress and then the third broad (00:26:35) grouping that we've observed is that (00:26:38) it's about basically a drive for (00:26:41) certainty and predictability so you can (00:26:43) have safety and in that predictability (00:26:45) and certainty when it's not there and (00:26:48) you're frustrated you get anxious and (00:26:50) you get fearful okay so let me put (00:26:52) something to you something I (00:26:55) um have realized and experienced some my (00:26:58) own (00:27:00) life is (00:27:02) that certain things certain aspects of (00:27:05) who I thought I (00:27:07) was were not actually who I was they (00:27:11) were who I (00:27:12) became okay and I'll give you a concrete (00:27:15) example yeah now listeners of this (00:27:17) podcast may have heard this example (00:27:19) before so I'll try and sort of summarize (00:27:20) the essence because I I'd really love (00:27:22) your take on this I was brought up uh (00:27:25) two parent family older brother um my (00:27:29) parents were Indian immigrants to the UK (00:27:31) so Dad came in 1962 mom came in about 74 (00:27:35) something like that (00:27:36) okay so in a lot of immigrant families (00:27:41) uh and I could speak for an Indian (00:27:42) immigrant family in the UK a huge (00:27:45) emphasis is put on academic (00:27:49) Excellence so I can (00:27:52) remember uh various incidents as a child (00:27:55) when I'd come back from school maybe at (00:27:57) 5 or six or seven can't remember the (00:27:59) exact age with 19 out of 20 let's (00:28:03) say and there would never be a well done (00:28:06) it would always be what did you get (00:28:08) wrong oh my okay yeah um if I wasn't top (00:28:12) of the class it would like who came top (00:28:15) you know why weren't you top okay now (00:28:18) that may sound really toxic but and (00:28:21) maybe when I first came across this and (00:28:23) start to unpick my childhood I may have (00:28:25) considered it as toxic as well but I (00:28:27) don't anymore because I believe there's (00:28:29) multiple perspectives on every situation (00:28:31) so my parents facing the Discrimination (00:28:34) they face when they came to the UK back (00:28:36) then in their (00:28:39) heads the way that they avoid their (00:28:42) children facing the same problems is by (00:28:45) academic Excellence because academic (00:28:47) Excellence equates to being a doctor an (00:28:50) engineer or a lawyer which equates to a (00:28:52) good secure job right the problem for me (00:28:56) was and I of course wasn't aware of this (00:28:59) at the time and this is the story I now (00:29:01) tell myself as I reflect on my life and (00:29:04) try and use what I've learned from my (00:29:07) childhood to help make me a a better a (00:29:10) more calmer and more enlightened adult I (00:29:13) realized that I took on the belief at a (00:29:16) young age that I was only loved or I (00:29:20) felt I was only worthy of love when I (00:29:23) got full marks when I was top of the (00:29:25) class and (00:29:26) so for much of my life I consider myself (00:29:30) very (00:29:31) competitive if you talk to any one of my (00:29:33) close friends they will tell you rongan (00:29:35) is one of the most competitive people (00:29:37) you will meet I would not lose at (00:29:39) something be it snooker pool run (00:29:42) whatever it is I would make sure somehow (00:29:46) that I won right it's not a it's not a (00:29:48) very it's not a a very calm place to (00:29:52) live from and what would happen if you (00:29:54) didn't yeah this is really interesting (00:29:56) and and I only really discovered this (00:29:57) when writing my last book happy mind (00:30:00) happy life when I sort of realized I (00:30:02) actually didn't enjoy (00:30:04) winning I just couldn't stand the (00:30:06) thought of (00:30:07) losing right it's very very different (00:30:10) yeah but here's the interesting thing (00:30:12) Dan for (00:30:13) me I would have said I was competitive (00:30:16) my friends would say I was competitive I (00:30:20) thought oh that's who I am I'm (00:30:22) competitive but it it's not who I am it (00:30:25) it was who I became I am no longer compe (00:30:28) itive genuinely like by doing a variety (00:30:31) of different things including internal (00:30:33) family systems and all kinds of (00:30:35) different things which I've spoken about (00:30:37) before I've realized where that came (00:30:40) from I've moved Beyond it so in terms of (00:30:43) Personality some people would have said (00:30:45) well are your personality wrongness to (00:30:46) be (00:30:47) competitive and I guess we can talk (00:30:49) about the difference between (00:30:51) personality um and temperament and but (00:30:55) in essence what I'm trying to say is and (00:30:58) what try and explain to people is that (00:31:00) who you are today is not necessarily who (00:31:02) you are it may be or a large part of it (00:31:05) may be who you became I find that very (00:31:08) empowering because I now go oh well what (00:31:11) else about me potentially could I change (00:31:14) if I wanted to so I could tell you a lot (00:31:16) more but do please do well in (00:31:21) essence I feel a lot of people a lot of (00:31:23) my patients in the (00:31:25) past feel that the way they are is just (00:31:28) the the way they are well this is just (00:31:29) who I am and maybe part of it is who (00:31:32) they are but maybe a huge part isn't (00:31:35) maybe a huge part of who you think you (00:31:36) are is an adaptation to your childhood (00:31:40) for very good reason and so I I always (00:31:43) like to empower people so I believe that (00:31:44) we can change a lot more about our lives (00:31:48) than we give ourselves credit for I (00:31:49) think a lot of people feel that they're (00:31:51) stuck with what they consider to be (00:31:54) their personality but how much of their (00:31:56) personality is actually changeable and (00:31:58) was a response an appropriate response (00:32:02) because if you take my competitiveness (00:32:04) it's a genius adaptation if I think I'm (00:32:06) only getting love when I'm top well (00:32:10) developing the trait of being (00:32:12) competitive is going to help push me to (00:32:15) to be the top so I'll be loved right but (00:32:18) but as I've realized oh (00:32:21) actually I'm loved anyway I don't need (00:32:24) that right and that that's a you know (00:32:27) long story of how I got to that point (00:32:28) but I today I actually do (00:32:32) genuinely I I just feel bloody fantastic (00:32:34) then I feel calm I feel (00:32:37) non-reactive I feel that I see Joy (00:32:40) everywhere in the world I feel that I (00:32:41) try and operate from a place of Love (00:32:43) rather than fear in most of my (00:32:46) 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live more to get (00:33:41) $350 off the Pod 4 ultra or you can (00:33:45) click on the link in the description box (00:33:47) below it currently ships to United (00:33:49) States Canada the UK Europe and (00:33:53) Australia now back to the (00:33:56) conversation you know a lot about (00:33:58) personality you said this book is a (00:34:00) 20-year project you've tried to (00:34:01) summarize in a book yeah do you have any (00:34:04) comments on what I've just shared with (00:34:06) you oh lots of comments first of all (00:34:08) thank you for sharing uh your personal (00:34:11) Journey uh it's very powerful to hear it (00:34:14) and you know I think the message you're (00:34:18) trying to give to everyone that be (00:34:22) careful when you think some aspect of (00:34:25) who you are and that's in quotes is (00:34:28) fixed yeah uh then you your own belief (00:34:33) that it's fixed may make it so right so (00:34:37) there's beautiful work by the scientist (00:34:39) Carol DW yeah on growth mindset versus a (00:34:42) fixed mindset where one of the things (00:34:45) you can study is personality and when (00:34:48) you believe that's changeable then (00:34:50) things are changeable on the other hand (00:34:53) uh there are ways of understanding for (00:34:55) example how the brain forms early in (00:34:58) life so in (00:34:59) Udo to create these things we call (00:35:02) temperament and you have kids I've got (00:35:05) kids who now adults um you know our two (00:35:09) kids had very different temperaments (00:35:11) likewise you know for the first two days (00:35:13) you knew they very different (00:35:15) temperaments and we can study that (00:35:16) there's some fabulous books there's a (00:35:18) beautiful book called parenting with (00:35:20) temperament in mind that some colleagues (00:35:22) wrote that's just (00:35:24) Exquisite and and the key thing about (00:35:26) temperament if you're a parent listen (00:35:28) is to know that it isn't that one (00:35:31) temperament is better than another as a (00:35:33) parent your invitation is to just tune (00:35:36) into who your child is in quotes and (00:35:39) allow them to thrive given their (00:35:41) temperament rather than projecting your (00:35:44) expectations onto your kid I want an (00:35:45) outgoing energized kid who's able to (00:35:48) take on any kind of new thing and if (00:35:50) that's not your kid's temperament it's (00:35:52) going to be a problem that child is not (00:35:54) going to really be seen by you won't be (00:35:56) easily soothed by you won't particularly (00:35:57) feel emotionally safe with you and so (00:36:00) that non Attunement to the who they're (00:36:03) who they actually are quote temperament (00:36:04) wise will actually intensify their very (00:36:08) feelings of nervousness because they (00:36:10) won't be seen by you so that's one way (00:36:12) of seeing how attachment experiences (00:36:14) which are your relationships with (00:36:15) important caregivers in your life how it (00:36:19) actually shapes the regulatory circuitry (00:36:21) of the brain which would include for (00:36:23) example you getting the message from (00:36:25) your (00:36:26) parents that says hey he you got one out (00:36:30) of 20 wrong why'd you do that and just (00:36:33) their non-verbal communication to you or (00:36:35) maybe they're explicit about it why (00:36:37) didn't you get 20 out of 20 you know (00:36:39) makes you feel like I want the love of (00:36:41) my parents and so I'm going to really do (00:36:44) well in fact I'll not just do well in (00:36:45) academics I'll do well in everything can (00:36:47) can I just jump in there just for a (00:36:48) second because I think it's a really (00:36:49) important point that perhaps I didn't (00:36:51) make clear when (00:36:53) explaining I dearly love my parents and (00:36:56) I think they did a great job in raising (00:36:57) me (00:36:58) like I really do believe that yeah I (00:37:00) hear that and (00:37:03) um I believe they were doing that from a (00:37:05) place of love I really do I believe that (00:37:09) their intention and and this is quite a (00:37:11) common immigrant type story you and (00:37:14) certainly in Asian immigrants you will (00:37:16) hear this ever since I started sharing (00:37:18) this story the amount of people from (00:37:20) immigrant families who get in touch with (00:37:21) me and say oh my God thank you for (00:37:23) verbalizing that that was my experience (00:37:25) as well and I hope we get to talk about (00:37:27) your wheel of awareness at some point um (00:37:31) I feel (00:37:33) that real evolution of our our personal (00:37:39) growth really comes when we actually no (00:37:41) longer try and blame so maybe when I (00:37:44) initially came across this I might have (00:37:46) been frustrated I remember I I actually (00:37:48) po around to moms years ago when I was (00:37:50) started to come around this I said hey (00:37:51) Mom you know why did you say that to me (00:37:53) or dad you know why did you say that to (00:37:55) me and he they don't even remember (00:37:58) right and be it was very clear to me (00:38:02) that they just wanted the best for me (00:38:04) like my mom once said to me hey look we (00:38:06) know how talented you are we just wanted (00:38:09) you to be the best that you could be so (00:38:11) this I think a lot of the time with our (00:38:13) it's not necessarily what happened it's (00:38:15) the interpretation we give to what (00:38:17) happened so now I look back on on that (00:38:20) with love I go hey M dad I get why you (00:38:22) did that you wanted me to have the best (00:38:24) life I could possibly have right so you (00:38:26) were driving me to be the best I could (00:38:29) be the problem for me and it's not (00:38:32) blaming them the problem for me was that (00:38:35) I interpreted that I think as a sign (00:38:39) that I'm not loved unless I get top (00:38:41) marks and so that has massively (00:38:43) influenced my own uh parenting Style (00:38:46) with my children because I don't want (00:38:48) them to feel that right and I hear you (00:38:51) being really wonderfully respectful of (00:38:54) your parents and really honoring them (00:38:56) which is really beautiful the research (00:39:00) you know that Carol D and others have (00:39:02) done uh looking at how (00:39:05) parents reward in their comments um you (00:39:09) know a child's efforts for example (00:39:12) rather than the outcome of what they do (00:39:15) show that kids actually do better when (00:39:18) parents really recognize the efforts (00:39:21) yeah you really put a lot of energy into (00:39:23) this you really cared I can see how (00:39:24) thorough you were wow you did like that (00:39:27) right (00:39:28) whereas kids who are only rewarded for (00:39:31) the outcome yeah a result on a test or (00:39:33) whatever you know they develop this (00:39:36) fixed mindset where they think okay it's (00:39:40) all just about what I what what I result (00:39:43) in not what I'm experiencing because (00:39:46) with a growth mindset Carol D um has (00:39:49) shown you know what you have is you have (00:39:51) resilience you know you were really (00:39:53) fortunate you have all these gifts and (00:39:56) so your parents (00:39:58) alignment and you know really pushing (00:40:00) for results you know worked out fine but (00:40:03) imagine if it didn't yeah and I know (00:40:06) people probably many people where (00:40:09) parents tried the exact same thing and (00:40:11) their kids were not capable great I me (00:40:13) say and whoa the outcome for those (00:40:16) children is really sad they feel (00:40:19) horrible about themselves because they (00:40:21) couldn't get the marks their parents (00:40:22) said keep on striving striving imagine (00:40:25) if that child just had a parent said wow (00:40:28) I saw you really put your effort in you (00:40:30) got 14 out of 20 um last time you got 10 (00:40:34) out of 20 remarkable you know keep on (00:40:37) keep on with that effort that's (00:40:38) beautiful not beating them up for (00:40:40) getting 14 out of 20 instead of 20 out (00:40:42) of 20 so it it worked out well with you (00:40:45) and your parents so I just want to say (00:40:46) for anyone listening you know the (00:40:49) research is pretty clear you know let's (00:40:52) focus on the effort that a child exerts (00:40:55) rather than the outcome of what they (00:40:57) result in I I I completely agree and (00:40:59) also just to add there (00:41:02) um I think it's worked out well not (00:41:06) because of Any achievement or success as (00:41:09) defined by society that I've had in life (00:41:12) it's only ended up okay because I've (00:41:15) gone in and explored my inner world and (00:41:19) processed a lot of this because I think (00:41:21) for many years it wasn't okay in the (00:41:23) facts I was achieving yeah but I felt (00:41:26) incomplete so what is that like to feel (00:41:29) incomplete (00:41:33) so I think how it (00:41:37) felt was (00:41:40) Hollow so I I feel that (00:41:45) um whenever I achieved and yes I am by (00:41:49) society's metric of success sure I've (00:41:52) achieved a degree of success (00:41:54) definitely but I think in many ways (00:41:56) achieving that success (00:41:58) taught me that it doesn't make you (00:42:00) happy right I got the outcomes that you (00:42:04) know my dad would have loved but he (00:42:06) never got to see (00:42:10) right but getting those (00:42:13) outcomes didn't lead to (00:42:16) contentment (00:42:18) so going back to your original (00:42:21) question I feel one of the key things I (00:42:23) learned was (00:42:26) that you could achieve perfect or what (00:42:29) you consider perfect outcomes and it (00:42:32) still not fill the hole that you have (00:42:33) inside yourself so for some I think for (00:42:37) me it was very beneficial to get these (00:42:39) high levels of success to teach me that (00:42:42) and it's kind of forced me or it's (00:42:44) encouraged me to go inwards and go and (00:42:46) figure out well what does contentment (00:42:48) look like because external validation (00:42:51) sure as hell didn't do it for (00:42:53) me and so I really was set on this path (00:42:57) down when my father died in 2013 because (00:43:00) I was uh a huge part of um you know huge (00:43:04) part of my adult life was spent caring (00:43:06) for Dad along with my mom and my big (00:43:08) brother so you know I live very near my (00:43:11) family house still now mom's still there (00:43:13) you know I live five minutes away and so (00:43:16) Dad dying was the (00:43:21) um it was the first time where I started (00:43:24) to go inward until dad died everything (00:43:27) was outward for for me I think when dad (00:43:28) died it was the first time I went inward (00:43:30) to examine my life where did my beliefs (00:43:32) come from where did my desire to become (00:43:35) adult to come from what am I doing so (00:43:39) that's me trying to summarize a very (00:43:41) very long journey did that make sense it (00:43:43) makes total sense and you use two words (00:43:47) um the idea that there was a hollow (00:43:50) inside and something felt very (00:43:52) incomplete C can you just try to (00:43:55) illuminate for us what (00:43:58) what did that feel like (00:44:06) holess it's so hard to put words to this (00:44:09) because I feel that I've it's been years (00:44:12) now since I moved Beyond thish so in (00:44:15) some ways that's a really nice thing to (00:44:16) go oh I can barely remember what that (00:44:18) used to feel like right so I I think (00:44:20) that's a good thing (00:44:23) um nothing ever felt (00:44:26) enough okay (00:44:29) um I think going back to how we started (00:44:32) this (00:44:33) conversation (00:44:35) um I think I felt (00:44:38) reactive (00:44:40) um I think part of it was also this I've (00:44:43) got everything you could possibly have (00:44:45) wanted as a (00:44:47) child (00:44:49) yet I still want more MH mhm you know (00:44:53) I'm trying to put words to something (00:44:54) that I used to (00:44:56) feel I guess the contrast would (00:44:59) be you know last year I was in in Sweden (00:45:03) my my book and happiness came out there (00:45:05) a year after it came out in the UK and (00:45:07) the US and I was I was there doing some (00:45:09) promo for it and I remember Swedish (00:45:11) journalist Ask Me In Stocking well how (00:45:13) do you know if you're (00:45:14) happy it was a great question and I was (00:45:17) thinking about it and then I think what (00:45:19) came to mind in that moment (00:45:22) was I think you know when you're happy (00:45:24) when you have this kind of sense of (00:45:27) inner (00:45:28) peace and you don't really want for (00:45:30) anything like I feel I have enough and I (00:45:33) am enough mhm it's this making sense (00:45:36) total makes sense yeah I mean it's it's (00:45:38) really powerful to hear this and you (00:45:41) know I really so deeply appreciate us (00:45:44) being able to talk at this level of (00:45:46) vulnerability and openness and and (00:45:48) rawness you know (00:45:51) um (00:45:53) there's I think a way that we can put a (00:45:57) frame around this that might be a good (00:46:00) way to connect with you and then I want (00:46:02) to know what (00:46:04) happened after your dad died we we have (00:46:06) a very similar history in certain way my (00:46:08) dad died 12 years ago and I live 7 (00:46:10) minutes from my mom who's 95 now you (00:46:13) know and uh our adult daughter lives you (00:46:16) know 4 minutes away and our son lives 12 (00:46:19) minutes away you know so we have a (00:46:20) pretty tight family and I love hearing (00:46:23) that cuz that's quite rare these days (00:46:25) yeah it is so it's really nice to hear (00:46:27) that for me that other people do that as (00:46:28) well yeah yeah it's important thing to (00:46:30) have that feeling the opposite of you (00:46:33) know holess is I think wholeness to feel (00:46:37) whole and have this feeling of coherence (00:46:40) rather than fragmentation or (00:46:41) incompleteness so can I give you a (00:46:43) little just a download of this 20-year (00:46:45) project so picture the (00:46:51) experience that we (00:46:53) have (00:46:55) when there is no separ (00:46:58) ation when there's nothing you have to (00:47:01) do when you know there are no (00:47:04) emergencies like a siren we hear in the (00:47:06) distance tells us there some emergency (00:47:09) someone has to go from being receptive (00:47:11) to reactive fighting fleeing freezing or (00:47:14) collapsing in a faint you know you're (00:47:17) just receptive effortless (00:47:20) being and imagine though there are (00:47:23) variations of this but imagine that we (00:47:25) have a nervous system when we're in the (00:47:28) womb that can remember in what's called (00:47:31) implicit memory a feeling of just (00:47:34) effortless being of being not separated (00:47:37) of being whole when in the womb (00:47:39) especially the last trimester the last (00:47:42) three months you know you don't have to (00:47:44) eat you don't have to breathe you don't (00:47:48) have to make sure they're caregivers (00:47:49) aware where you (00:47:51) are all those things are taken care of (00:47:53) in the womb and sure there are (00:47:56) variations if your mother's stressed or (00:47:57) you're hearing you know painful things (00:48:00) outside the womb but in general there's (00:48:02) an effortless state of being that let's (00:48:05) just call that the experience of (00:48:08) wholeness you could go even further back (00:48:11) if you want to go in terms of cosmically (00:48:13) to the big bang and when all we were (00:48:15) were potential in the universe and then (00:48:17) potential spread out into all this mass (00:48:19) and stars and planets and moons and our (00:48:22) bodies but the point is that in the womb (00:48:26) and just like before the Big Bang all (00:48:29) there was was just (00:48:31) being then what's the difference between (00:48:35) this sense of wholeness that we all (00:48:37) experienced at some level in the womb (00:48:39) and now you're out you've been born (00:48:42) however you got out here what's the (00:48:44) difference in your state of (00:48:51) existence well when you're born and (00:48:53) you're outside the (00:48:55) womb you are reli (00:48:59) on certain (00:49:01) things you (00:49:04) need people caregivers parents siblings (00:49:10) whatever it is you need people to look (00:49:12) after you to bring you food um maybe (00:49:15) your mother to breastfeed you if she's (00:49:17) able to uh warmth uh (00:49:21) shelter and if those things are not (00:49:24) there you're going to feel isolated (00:49:27) you're going to feel that the world is (00:49:28) not safe and that there's something (00:49:31) wrong wrong and what if those things (00:49:33) never show up what's going to happen (00:49:36) well at one extreme if those things (00:49:37) never show up you're probably going to (00:49:39) end up dying right so you are now in a (00:49:42) Do or Die (00:49:44) situation okay we call it working for a (00:49:47) living right you got to make sure all (00:49:49) those things you powerfully just (00:49:52) said are there and you achieve them by (00:49:55) doing in various ways right you're just (00:49:58) a baby but there's a complete contrast (00:50:02) of the effortless being which we're (00:50:04) going to name as wholeness in the womb (00:50:07) that because you have a nervous system (00:50:10) that's remembering stuff in something (00:50:11) called implicit memory which means the (00:50:14) bodily (00:50:15) Sensations the perceptions the emotions (00:50:19) and even the behaviors in this case no (00:50:21) Behavior you don't have to do (00:50:23) anything those are remembered in an (00:50:25) implicit memory and here's the amazing (00:50:27) about pure implicit memory research (00:50:29) shows that when you take an implicit (00:50:32) memory that's in (00:50:33) storage and now retrieve it it's (00:50:38) activated and you don't know it's coming (00:50:40) from the (00:50:42) past so what our hypothesis is is that (00:50:46) there's a feeling of restlessness when (00:50:48) you're born because you (00:50:50) know something that you implicitly are (00:50:52) familiar with that you implicitly can (00:50:55) sense once was there is not there even (00:50:58) though you don't feel it's coming from (00:51:00) the past you just feel the contrast of (00:51:02) this mph this sense of wholeness that's (00:51:05) missing now as you powerfully point out (00:51:08) right we've never talked about this (00:51:09) before have we no but you (00:51:11) articulated you know exactly the the (00:51:14) setup right so now depending on your (00:51:17) temperament whether it's about agency in (00:51:20) one sensitive grouping bonding in (00:51:23) another sensitive grouping certainty in (00:51:25) another we think that your experience is (00:51:29) going to be I'm going to be really (00:51:31) frustrated or angry with this new non (00:51:33) wholeness setup I have separation (00:51:36) distress and sadness with this new non (00:51:38) wholeness setup or I'm going to be (00:51:41) anxious and fearful in this new non (00:51:44) wholeness setup is this for everyone for (00:51:46) everyone yeah okay no matter their (00:51:48) attachment yeah so what what you're (00:51:49) saying is if we really think about it is (00:51:53) deeply deeply (00:51:55) profound because the way I'm hearing the (00:51:59) information and the way it's sort of (00:52:01) filtering through my brain and my (00:52:03) existing beliefs and (00:52:05) perceptions I'm thinking well are you (00:52:08) saying (00:52:11) that a default state of being (00:52:16) human is that you experience a (00:52:19) separation from wholeness and therefore (00:52:22) is the (00:52:23) journey the real journey of being a (00:52:26) human to get back to the wholeness that (00:52:29) we previously experienced you've just (00:52:31) given the best summary of that book I've (00:52:33) ever (00:52:35) heard that was a 20-year project that (00:52:37) you just summarized beautifully that (00:52:39) personalities the different ways we're (00:52:41) trying to get back to (00:52:44) wholeness I I I literally can feel (00:52:46) tingles all over my body at the moment (00:52:50) um what (00:52:52) about the journey through the birth (00:52:55) canal well that we need to do research (00:52:57) on that but of course that can shape (00:52:59) things too what we feel is your (00:53:01) temperament is set up in the subcortical (00:53:04) that is in the brain you have a cortex (00:53:05) and areas below the cortex we call sub (00:53:08) for below cortex the subcortical areas (00:53:10) of the brain are what grows and mature (00:53:13) to a very full extent in utero in in the (00:53:16) womb so that now you're going to have (00:53:19) experiences that shape you that are (00:53:21) going to be cortically responded to so (00:53:23) that's an experience that certainly can (00:53:25) shape you and we should study that how (00:53:27) you get up by cesarian section of (00:53:29) vaginal delivery yes we should study (00:53:32) that that brief period will certainly (00:53:34) impact memory in a certain way but the (00:53:36) larger pictures you have a temperament a (00:53:39) little sensitivity in one of these (00:53:41) motivational networks for agency versus (00:53:43) bonding versus certainty is going to set (00:53:47) up more activation in that particular (00:53:49) Network for the first day 2 3 4 5 and (00:53:53) then the way neuroplasticity how the (00:53:55) brain changes in response to experience (00:53:58) is that your own initial sensitivity or (00:54:01) intensity or response to novelty the (00:54:04) classic ways we Define temperament if (00:54:06) it's distributed across these three (00:54:08) motivational networks in a slightly (00:54:10) different way by a week of age a month (00:54:14) of age five months of age your own (00:54:17) initial small sensitivity is going to (00:54:19) become a larger set of neural (00:54:21) connections because it was just firing (00:54:23) off more neurons would fire together (00:54:25) wire together so now you're 6 months of (00:54:27) age and you've got a temperament going (00:54:29) and not not that you have a you're (00:54:31) temperamental that classic way we use it (00:54:33) but more you have a feature to your (00:54:34) nervous system so we think my colleagues (00:54:38) and I (00:54:40) that this contrast of being whole in the (00:54:43) womb effortless (00:54:45) being is embedded in your implicit (00:54:48) memory and that (00:54:50) embedding in the womb is so different (00:54:53) from your actual ongoing online real (00:54:56) time experiences of being out here in (00:54:58) the world for the rest of our (00:55:01) lives that this temperament is then (00:55:04) activated especially when we're (00:55:06) challenged in certain ways but in (00:55:08) general in life and then you have the (00:55:11) attachment experiences you get things (00:55:13) your parents say or do for being seen (00:55:17) soothed and safe are going to then shape (00:55:21) whether these temperament features (00:55:23) become intensely molding your personal (00:55:27) it in a certain (00:55:28) direction or kind of more mildly molding (00:55:31) it so we don't think it determines (00:55:33) whether you're ABC agency bonding or or (00:55:37) certainty but that it (00:55:39) intensifies the rigidity of your (00:55:41) personality if your attachments been not (00:55:44) secure okay (00:55:46) so temperament and personality yeah (00:55:51) these are separate things well they're (00:55:54) let's not call them separate let's call (00:55:55) them distinct things they are distinct (00:55:58) they're not separate in that personality (00:56:00) emerges from temperament that's our (00:56:03) Theory um so they're distinct (00:56:05) temperament would be the (00:56:07) subcortical um proclivities that you're (00:56:11) born with they're not learned for for (00:56:13) someone who who doesn't understand the (00:56:14) term subcortical can you just break it (00:56:17) down for them sure so the brain if you (00:56:20) take your hand and put your thumb in the (00:56:23) middle if you're not driving you know (00:56:24) take a hand put your thumb in the middle (00:56:26) put your fingers over the top where your (00:56:28) fingers are folded over your thumb (00:56:29) that's the cortex the higher part of the (00:56:31) brain that's the part of the brain that (00:56:32) will develop in a huge way after you're (00:56:36) born and it responds to (00:56:38) learning from experiential immersion (00:56:42) including what happens with your parents (00:56:43) or what happens in school if you lift up (00:56:46) your fingers and see the thumb and (00:56:49) palm let's call these the subcortical (00:56:51) areas this includes regions that used to (00:56:54) be commonly called the lyic area people (00:56:56) don't like to use that term anymore for (00:56:59) complex reasons but amydala hippocampus (00:57:02) hypothalamus are the formal names the (00:57:04) more primitive parts of our brain more (00:57:06) primitive parts of the brain we don't (00:57:07) need to call them old Mamon because some (00:57:09) people don't want us to use that name (00:57:10) anymore but that's fine but they're more (00:57:13) primitive and they develop earlier in (00:57:15) development so in the womb if you lift (00:57:17) up your thumb you're now down to the (00:57:19) brain stem and in this lyic but used to (00:57:23) be called lyic and brain stem area there (00:57:25) are other areas too just call the whole (00:57:27) region there beneath your fingers sub (00:57:30) meaning beneath cortical and the (00:57:32) importance here is that research has (00:57:34) shown that you have many distinct (00:57:37) motivational networks that are basically (00:57:40) taking basic needs like a need for (00:57:43) agency that is embodied empowerment you (00:57:46) know have a sense of competence autonomy (00:57:48) that's one network it's very different (00:57:50) in the subcortical regions to a distinct (00:57:54) motivational Network anatomically and (00:57:55) functionally very distinct for bonding (00:57:58) this is for relational connections for (00:58:01) me being accepted by you when I arrived (00:58:03) here that deep Network in me is (00:58:06) activated but then you know when I'm (00:58:08) walking to see you I have a third (00:58:11) motivational Network we think is really (00:58:12) important for personality and its (00:58:15) Origins are in temperament so we'll get (00:58:16) to that in a moment and that's for (00:58:18) certainty that is for predictability why (00:58:21) is predictability important in life (00:58:23) because if there's prediction there's (00:58:25) protection so if I I can know where I'm (00:58:27) walking to get there in a certain time I (00:58:29) feel a certain kind of ease and I get (00:58:31) here that's fine then when I meet you (00:58:33) you know my bonding network is activated (00:58:36) is is wrong gun going to really accept (00:58:38) me am I going to be okay am I wearing (00:58:39) the right things am I saying the right (00:58:41) things you know for agency is you know (00:58:44) when I come do I I need to go to the (00:58:46) restroom I'm too hot let me take my (00:58:48) jacket off you know I take care of my (00:58:49) bodily needs so all these things what's (00:58:52) fascinating about is these are three (00:58:54) very distinct Networks in the (00:58:57) subcortical regions and we have (00:59:00) thousands of narratives from people in a (00:59:02) system called the anagram that my (00:59:04) colleagues are immersed in it's not (00:59:06) really my area but we've been working (00:59:08) together for 20 years to take those (00:59:10) thousands of narratives and basically (00:59:12) say why do people speak in such (00:59:14) different ways about their inner life (00:59:16) and then we went to my field (00:59:18) interpersonal neurobiology where we put (00:59:20) all these different fields together (00:59:22) especially neuroscience and (00:59:23) developmental science and what we think (00:59:26) happens is that temperament is what (00:59:29) you're born with not learned and that (00:59:33) the reason people have all these very (00:59:34) distinct narratives that fall into nine (00:59:37) different patterns is because you have (00:59:40) what we call adaptive strategies to your (00:59:43) own temperament that that's personality (00:59:46) and that's how you get personality it's (00:59:47) your adaptive strategy and that you (00:59:49) experience outwardly in well you (00:59:51) experience it in your (00:59:53) emotions thought and behavior so the (00:59:55) simplest way of Define finding (00:59:56) personality just to give a definition of (00:59:58) it is (01:00:00) persistent patterns of (01:00:03) emotion thought and (01:00:06) behavior that exist across conditions (01:00:10) that is situations and time so it's not (01:00:13) just a state of mind I'm in this (01:00:15) particular moment and it'll never come (01:00:16) back it's persistent it's recurrent it (01:00:19) comes back okay yeah that's the simplest (01:00:22) way of defining personality so we think (01:00:25) personality can be more like a prison (01:00:29) especially when your attachment is not (01:00:30) secure or can be more like a playground (01:00:33) but it may be we always have personality (01:00:35) that's a big question we can get to and (01:00:37) maybe you can go beneath personality to (01:00:39) just open receptive awareness we'll get (01:00:41) into that but temperament may always (01:00:44) persist so they're distinct but they but (01:00:47) temperament we think gives rise to (01:00:48) personality it's an it's a helpful (01:00:52) analogy (01:00:53) um a lot of the time on this podcast we (01:00:56) we talk about how much genetics play a (01:00:59) role and how much our lifestyle and (01:01:03) environment plays a role okay in terms (01:01:05) of our risk of getting sick or (01:01:07) Alzheimer's or something like that okay (01:01:10) and so in the world I operate in um we (01:01:14) we commonly talk about well you know you (01:01:17) you have a genetic (01:01:19) predisposition or you may have a genetic (01:01:22) predisposition to something let's say (01:01:24) type two diabetes (01:01:27) but that's probably 5 or 10% off it (01:01:29) because 90% or so of of your risk is (01:01:32) going to come (01:01:34) from how you live your life what you're (01:01:36) exposed to what's the environment okay (01:01:39) so which is I think hugely empowering (01:01:43) for people who are able to make (01:01:45) different choices of course not everyone (01:01:47) is able (01:01:49) to can I look at what you've just said (01:01:51) through a similar lens not quite the (01:01:54) same thing but (01:01:57) you're (01:01:58) born and once you're born that process (01:02:01) or some process I don't know where (01:02:04) genetic sort of um feature here (01:02:08) but you have a temperament like your you (01:02:11) know your genetic predisposition for typ (01:02:14) to diabetes right and then it's your (01:02:16) lifestyle that determines what actually (01:02:19) happens is it similar in the sense that (01:02:22) we're born with a temperament with a (01:02:25) tendency but then our personality (01:02:28) develops on top of the (01:02:30) temperament in response to various (01:02:33) environmental inputs including the way (01:02:35) we were brought up exactly okay yeah so (01:02:38) that works that works totally and and (01:02:41) and to build on that um number one it's (01:02:45) not just genetics it can be just let's (01:02:47) use the word innate that is you can have (01:02:50) just the way you were leaning in the (01:02:51) womb for example I just did a workshop (01:02:53) where they were identical twins and they (01:02:55) had different personal ities you know (01:02:57) and they have identical genes but one (01:03:00) was leaning to the left and one was (01:03:01) leaning to the right and the Brain (01:03:03) develops so the initial sensitivity that (01:03:06) we call temperament may not have that (01:03:09) big a genetic component but it's still (01:03:11) innate that it it was inherent when you (01:03:13) were born you didn't learn it that's the (01:03:16) important thing okay so uh just as you (01:03:18) can't change your (01:03:20) genes although you can change the (01:03:23) expression of them and that the sort of (01:03:25) phenomena of AP etics in terms of how we (01:03:28) live our life what we're exposed (01:03:30) to if we look at what you've just said (01:03:32) through the lens of the story I relay to (01:03:35) you about my competitive personality (01:03:37) traits that I no longer have yeah (01:03:41) okay are you saying that I was born with (01:03:44) an innate (01:03:45) tendency and because of certain (01:03:47) experiences in my life when I was a (01:03:50) young child those experiences shaped me (01:03:53) to develop the personality traits of (01:03:56) competitiveness mhm and first of all (01:03:59) interested whether you think that's uh a (01:04:02) reasonable assertion that I'm making (01:04:04) based upon all the study and science (01:04:06) that you've written about and been going (01:04:07) through for many many years but also (01:04:10) that definition of (01:04:12) personality persistent patterns of (01:04:16) emotion thought and (01:04:19) behavior I'm just trying to look at that (01:04:21) through the lens of competitiveness I (01:04:23) think it was a persistant pattern in my (01:04:25) life I certainly would say my thoughts I (01:04:29) had competitive thoughts I had (01:04:31) competitive (01:04:33) behaviors you know is what I said to you (01:04:37) does it does it feel accurate to you (01:04:39) based upon your study yeah well it the (01:04:42) the in Academia the main view of um (01:04:49) personality is called the big five this (01:04:51) is the accepted View and this is what (01:04:54) we're going to even get even a little (01:04:56) further beyond what we're talking about (01:04:58) just to say these are observable traits (01:05:01) personality traits and they include (01:05:05) things that spell the word ocean so it's (01:05:06) openness o versus (01:05:09) closedness C is (01:05:12) conscientiousness versus carelessness (01:05:14) that's OC e is extroversion versus (01:05:18) introversion which is really referring (01:05:20) to your sociability you know do you like (01:05:22) to go out and hang out with people or (01:05:23) you rather be by yourself introverted (01:05:27) um then o c EA is agreeable or not (01:05:32) agreeable and N is neuroticism meaning (01:05:35) are you kind of neurotic or are you kind (01:05:37) of cool as a cucumber and do you have to (01:05:40) pick one one of the five or you have get (01:05:42) all five you get various various degrees (01:05:44) so this is not we don't we don't think (01:05:45) there's something called a personality (01:05:47) type so we don't use the word type (01:05:48) anymore we talk about patterns meaning (01:05:51) you can have all sorts of degrees of (01:05:53) each of those five now that's the (01:05:55) classic view from like the last 30 years (01:05:58) of formal University based academic (01:06:02) research on personality so make sure (01:06:04) you're taking action after watching this (01:06:06) video I've created a free guide to help (01:06:09) you build healthy habits we can all make (01:06:12) short-term change but can those changes (01:06:14) become a fundamental part of our life (01:06:17) often they don't and that's why in this (01:06:19) free guide I share with you the six (01:06:22) crucial steps you need to take that (01:06:25) really really eff effective if you want (01:06:27) to get hold of that free guide right now (01:06:30) all you have to do is click the link in (01:06:31) the description box (01:06:33) below (01:06:35) now when you when you go beneath those (01:06:38) five factors and we've been doing that (01:06:42) with our approach Carol dck came up (01:06:46) years later with a different approach (01:06:48) now that um that uses the exact same (01:06:52) notion that I'm describing to you here (01:06:54) so it's a very exciting moment um I just (01:06:56) learned about this a couple days ago oh (01:06:58) wow yeah so it's super exciting but (01:07:00) consilient that is (01:07:02) independently it's this emergence of (01:07:05) this notion that you're born with a (01:07:07) temperament that she uses this great (01:07:09) acronym called beats that there are (01:07:12) beliefs emotions and what she calls (01:07:15) action (01:07:16) tendencies that are equivalent to what (01:07:18) we're calling adaptive strategies that (01:07:20) are basically how your temperament comes (01:07:23) into your personality and she shows the (01:07:26) relationship of those things to the (01:07:28) ocean F Big Five personality traits so (01:07:31) that's a thing you can look up for her (01:07:33) for us we're looking at how attachment (01:07:36) um Can intensify the nonfunctional ways (01:07:39) your particular combination is and I (01:07:41) haven't demonstrate why the three get (01:07:44) into nine and that's another interesting (01:07:46) thing because we think another aspect of (01:07:48) temperament and um research colleague of (01:07:50) mine actually found this in the brain (01:07:53) independently so another form of (01:07:55) consilience is something people are very (01:07:56) inward different from introversion not (01:07:59) about your sociability just they their (01:08:02) energy is kind of inward they're (01:08:03) focusing inward other people focus (01:08:05) outward their energy outward some people (01:08:08) are kind of a shimmering between Inward (01:08:10) and outward so you're both Inward and (01:08:12) outward at the same time we call that (01:08:14) dietic meaning it's a diet is a pair so (01:08:17) it's pairing Inward and outward when you (01:08:20) put those three orientations of (01:08:23) attention which I've made up a term ATT (01:08:25) tendency the tendency of attention isn't (01:08:27) a tendency inward outward or dietic as (01:08:30) both when you combine that with the ABC (01:08:33) agency bonding and you know certainty (01:08:37) you get nine we now have tens of (01:08:39) thousands of narratives that beautifully (01:08:43) fold into these nine patterns when (01:08:46) people tell the story of their life so (01:08:49) when Carol D came up with independently (01:08:52) just theoretically this model that's (01:08:55) virally identical to our model it was so (01:08:57) exciting because our model was derived (01:08:59) from listening to tens of thousands of (01:09:02) people talk about their lives so you (01:09:05) know it's an exciting moment and in this (01:09:07) view to get to your (01:09:08) point competitiveness is not in the big (01:09:11) five so if I were a university (01:09:14) researcher which I'm not and and was (01:09:16) saying trying to put the Big Five on (01:09:18) there I would say (01:09:19) listen we don't see competitiveness (01:09:21) certainly it's a feature of who you are (01:09:23) but it's not a formal listing in the (01:09:26) academically accepted Big Five it's not (01:09:29) about whether you're open conscientious (01:09:32) you know extroverted it's not about your (01:09:34) agreeableness depending on how you use (01:09:36) your competitiv it's not about whether (01:09:38) you're neurotic or not you could have (01:09:39) any variation of ocean an academic would (01:09:42) say and still be competitive or not (01:09:44) competitive so we don't look for (01:09:45) competitiveness was what they would say (01:09:47) I'm sure what would you say so for me I (01:09:50) would say (01:09:52) that my best friend for example in High (01:09:56) School (01:09:58) um was incredibly competitive he loved (01:10:02) playing tennis I would play with him and (01:10:05) I would just laugh when I would miss the (01:10:06) ball and he would go come on come on try (01:10:08) try let's let's beat each other whatever (01:10:11) I just didn't care I never cared about (01:10:13) that um for him he's always watching the (01:10:16) sports page in the paper I said why do (01:10:18) you do that he goes you kidding I want (01:10:19) this team to win I really want them to (01:10:21) beat the other team I I never had a (01:10:23) moment in my body where I cared ever (01:10:26) about (01:10:27) that it felt like it was a temperament (01:10:29) thing you know I know his family I think (01:10:31) he had secure attachment I did not have (01:10:33) secure attachment to my family you'd (01:10:35) think I'd be the competitive one trying (01:10:37) to achieve something so it could be that (01:10:40) your competitiveness this is a question (01:10:41) I'm going to ask you and maybe in (01:10:43) general but let's look for you in (01:10:45) particular if we take this notion that (01:10:48) personality and all its Dimensions is a (01:10:51) lifelong journey to (01:10:54) wholeness that could it (01:10:57) be that for the temperament in you which (01:11:00) we haven't figured out yet but could it (01:11:02) be that competitiveness was a way of (01:11:04) getting some sense of wholeness if you (01:11:07) won and that as you said it wasn't that (01:11:10) I really wanted to win I just didn't (01:11:11) want to lose yeah and that you got a (01:11:13) wholeness when you won and that now you (01:11:16) found in ways that I'd love to know (01:11:19) about what happened 10 years ago after (01:11:21) your dad passed something may have (01:11:23) happened where you found another route (01:11:25) to Ness so it made competitiveness not (01:11:28) necessary yeah so that's my question for (01:11:30) you it's it's so (01:11:36) fascinating I do believe that (01:11:38) competitiveness (01:11:40) was you know through that lens yeah I (01:11:44) can make a case that it (01:11:46) was an attempt I would say a misguided (01:11:50) attempt to get (01:11:53) wholeness so if part of wholeness is (01:11:58) love then yeah I think competiveness was (01:12:01) a (01:12:02) way to receive love (01:12:06) mhm competiveness (01:12:09) was my way of thinking I was going to (01:12:14) get love but I don't think it brought me (01:12:17) that yeah so it may have been an attempt (01:12:19) but it was a failed attempt and so the (01:12:21) competitiveness that led to Straight A's (01:12:25) and medical school and excelling at you (01:12:29) know all kinds of different things which (01:12:32) was how I was brought up that I need to (01:12:34) Excel and this is another thing and you (01:12:37) may have come across this some of your (01:12:39) clients one thing a lot of Asian (01:12:41) immigrant kids get told in the UK and (01:12:44) I'm pretty sure it's the same in the US (01:12:46) and it's it's not with any (01:12:47) discrimination or or racism it really (01:12:50) isn't it's you've got to be better than (01:12:52) your white counterparts MH right so (01:12:55) that's drilled into I can't speak for (01:12:57) every family that's a culturally learned (01:12:59) thing right so we learned that at a (01:13:01) young age and I I know about the (01:13:03) Discrimination my parents face and my (01:13:05) dad face only in the weeks leading up to (01:13:07) his death he never ever told me once he (01:13:10) never complains he got on with life he (01:13:14) he just honestly I only learned about (01:13:16) this right towards the end about various (01:13:17) things that (01:13:19) happened and I have a lot of compassion (01:13:21) for Mom and Dad and how they would have (01:13:23) tried to bring me up because (01:13:26) you know they dearly loved and and love (01:13:30) me and my (01:13:31) brother and their desire for us to excel (01:13:36) as best as we (01:13:38) could was a desire for us to be accepted (01:13:42) and not face the struggle that they (01:13:44) faced right so I get it and also if you (01:13:47) really want to look at this in a very um (01:13:51) zoomed out big picture way (01:13:55) I'm actually glad they (01:13:57) did because I don't feel I would have (01:13:59) learned the lessons that I've learned in (01:14:02) life and had the realizations that I've (01:14:04) had without that experience yeah I'm (01:14:07) glad I had the competitiveness The (01:14:09) Emptiness the holess I'm glad because (01:14:13) now I can really (01:14:14) appreciate yeah the wholeness the calm (01:14:17) and I don't think I would have was (01:14:20) competiveness an attempt back to (01:14:22) wholeness yes probably although a (01:14:24) misguided attempt (01:14:26) um I don't know how this seems to you've (01:14:28) talk about your friend and how we'd look (01:14:30) at the sports Pages well I used to I (01:14:32) don't anymore I don't care about sport (01:14:34) anymore but for much of my life I was a (01:14:37) diard Liverpool Football Club fan right (01:14:41) I would go to games I travel around (01:14:43) Europe to watch them like I was I was (01:14:45) all in and I can remember being at (01:14:48) University in Edinburgh it was either 98 (01:14:51) or 99 Liverpool's Arch Rivals Manchester (01:14:54) United (01:14:56) ended up winning the champions league (01:14:59) and I was out in a bar in Edinburgh with (01:15:01) my friends watching it hoping like hell (01:15:05) United lost they were one nil down right (01:15:08) and in injury time they scored two goals (01:15:12) oh my I was (01:15:16) devastated I was literally devastated (01:15:18) that United had won that's who I was (01:15:21) back then right I still think I was a (01:15:23) nice guy but I think that shows what how (01:15:26) my wiring was at that point (01:15:29) where it why should whether man united (01:15:31) won or not affect me I was a Liverpool (01:15:34) fan right but it did I was really really (01:15:38) pissed off I can remember it but what's (01:15:41) interesting as I no longer am (01:15:43) competitive because I'm not I'm also no (01:15:46) longer interested (01:15:48) in sport in that way I'm interested in (01:15:51) playing sports myself and getting better (01:15:55) I care yeah what Liverpool or man united (01:15:57) or Man City are doing and those desires (01:16:00) I had fit the person who I was back then (01:16:04) mhh but I'm not that person anymore so (01:16:07) therefore those Hobbies don't fit (01:16:08) anymore so what do you notice right now (01:16:10) in your body when you are reflecting on (01:16:13) this change through the lens of somehow (01:16:16) I was trying to get to wholeness by (01:16:18) identifying with the Liverpool team and (01:16:21) when you United won it just was so (01:16:24) meaningful to me and now with whatever (01:16:27) has happened in all these years you feel (01:16:29) the difference what do you notice in (01:16:31) your body well when I was describing (01:16:33) that story I felt a (01:16:36) tightness and as I think about um my (01:16:40) relationship to uh achievement and (01:16:44) sports and these things now I (01:16:46) feel I kind of feel loose loose MH loose (01:16:50) and it feels free it feels free yeah (01:16:53) yeah so as you just let that Freedom be (01:16:56) there right right now um the energy that (01:17:00) was put into two big things belief some (01:17:04) belief that you know (01:17:06) Liverpool them winning would mean (01:17:09) something in my life and (01:17:12) identity is who am I well I'm a (01:17:14) Liverpool fan that's who I am that's my (01:17:16) team that's my ingroup we come back to (01:17:18) kind of where we started yeah right so (01:17:20) there was something about (01:17:23) identity that is not just in our bodies (01:17:25) it can be a a sports team as you're (01:17:27) seeing and that identity gave us (01:17:30) something we haven't mentioned which is (01:17:33) belonging you could belong and if your (01:17:35) team wins you win yeah right because you (01:17:39) belong because that's your identity now (01:17:42) this ABC business agency you know (01:17:45) bonding certainty they're all about (01:17:46) belonging all of them they do it in (01:17:48) different (01:17:49) ways you know I we can go into the the (01:17:52) nine patterns and like we just name them (01:17:54) briefly but just to say this that um (01:17:58) someone might experience a little bit (01:18:00) differently because you were speaking of (01:18:02) being loved and having a connection that (01:18:05) would happen somehow if things were (01:18:07) right you know in in getting things (01:18:09) right when you'd be you know achieving (01:18:11) these things other people might feel (01:18:13) they had uh competence and empowerment (01:18:16) not just acceptance right and still (01:18:18) others would feel like they were safe if (01:18:20) I get 20 out of 20 on a test I'm safe (01:18:23) you know I'll go ahead and univers or (01:18:25) whatever but what I've heard you say in (01:18:28) a beautiful way is that it really comes (01:18:32) down to relationships for you so it'd be (01:18:34) interesting if we ever take time to (01:18:36) actually go through the nine patterns to (01:18:38) see where you ultimately find is your (01:18:40) kind of Baseline kind of what you lead (01:18:42) with in life and these I think are (01:18:44) changeable and ultimately here's what I (01:18:46) think goes on when people grow like (01:18:51) whatever the growth process you did for (01:18:53) me it's was the wheel of awareness and (01:18:54) all sort things we can talk about about (01:18:56) that if you want but this way of (01:18:59) entering open awareness where the things (01:19:02) you're aware of on the rim of this (01:19:03) metaphoric wheel are seen as very (01:19:05) distinct from the experience of (01:19:07) awareness in the hub we can get into (01:19:09) that but just to say that that (01:19:12) experience allows a person to realize (01:19:15) that there's even something beneath (01:19:18) temperament which is underneath (01:19:20) personality itself and when you start (01:19:22) feeling that it's the wholeness that we (01:19:24) seek (01:19:25) and that can be experienced in lots of (01:19:27) ways so for my particular patterns it (01:19:30) may be needing some kind of (01:19:32) predictability needing some kind of (01:19:34) certainty and so however that might (01:19:36) happen a routine doing something with my (01:19:39) wife you know being a certain way I'm (01:19:41) connecting to my mom there's a certain (01:19:43) certainty to that that gives me a sense (01:19:45) of wholeness maybe for you it be more (01:19:47) relational you know other people might (01:19:50) need to just make sure I'm competent at (01:19:53) what I do and I have this sense of you (01:19:55) know empowerment you know and what's (01:19:57) interesting when you do that is that (01:19:59) beneath all those three things the ABC (01:20:01) you know is this pure sense of wholeness (01:20:06) and my experience in working with people (01:20:08) over these many years in this model of (01:20:10) personality is it's just kind of like (01:20:12) what you're suggesting personality (01:20:14) traits like let's say competitive as is (01:20:17) one or you know meeting to be the best (01:20:19) on something or meeting do this or do (01:20:21) that when we relax that rigid prison of (01:20:25) a personality yeah through developing (01:20:27) secure attachment number one but also (01:20:29) accessing what I call a plane of (01:20:31) possibility this open spacious ease of (01:20:35) being and being (01:20:36) whole then all those things that come up (01:20:40) whether it's this drive for agency or a (01:20:42) drive for you know bonding or a drive (01:20:44) for (01:20:45) certainty ah you breathe beneath them (01:20:48) you may see them come up and it's almost (01:20:51) like your personality which was built on (01:20:53) top of your temperament instead instead (01:20:55) of being a really (01:20:56) imprisoning set of restricted ways of (01:20:59) being becomes more like a playground so (01:21:02) for example if I go camping I'm in the (01:21:04) certainty Vector is what I call it so (01:21:07) you can be sure when I go camping with (01:21:09) my family it's a sunny day but you never (01:21:13) know it's Autumn I'm going with four (01:21:16) family members I bring a jacket for (01:21:18) myself I say does anyone want a jacket (01:21:21) they go no they don't have jackets on I (01:21:23) bring four extra jackets we get in the (01:21:25) car we drive to the place a storm comes (01:21:28) it's freezing and wet and they go oh my (01:21:31) God we don't have the right gear we have (01:21:32) to go back Dan and they know that you (01:21:36) got it I got it I said here are your (01:21:38) jackets even though they told me not to (01:21:40) bring them I don't have to make them (01:21:41) wear them it's not like I push them on (01:21:43) them but you know because I'm in a (01:21:46) pattern of Personality that always goes (01:21:50) to the worst case scenario and and then (01:21:52) I once when that was a prison for me (01:21:54) when I was you know doing Physical (01:21:56) Medicine did you say prison a prison (01:21:59) yeah that that totally Rings true living (01:22:01) like that yeah for me was living in a (01:22:04) prison yeah say say more mental cage (01:22:06) yeah exactly a mental cage that you (01:22:08) don't know you're in until you're not in (01:22:10) it and then you're like oh wow exactly (01:22:12) that's a constricted way to live yeah so (01:22:15) this whole you know approach of this PDP (01:22:18) business patterns of Developmental (01:22:20) Pathways is to allow your personality (01:22:23) built from your temperament and (01:22:25) intensifi by your attachment insecurity (01:22:27) to become from that constraining prison (01:22:31) more like to a playground so then you (01:22:33) know the worst case caner goes I go oh (01:22:35) there might be a storm you guys want (01:22:38) jackets no and I go you know I'm going (01:22:41) to bring them anyway I throw them in the (01:22:42) back of the car then we're going the (01:22:44) Storm shows up so I'm happy that I was a (01:22:48) kind of questioning pattern that I (01:22:50) questioned the weather person and (01:22:52) whether they were right or not I (01:22:54) questioned even my relativ saying they (01:22:55) didn't need it when I was doing Physical (01:22:57) Medicine this personality pattern when I (01:23:00) was in Pediatrics for example if I got a (01:23:03) referral from another pediatrician I (01:23:06) never believed that the diagnosis that (01:23:09) they had come to was accurate and I (01:23:11) would not necessarily test the kid again (01:23:14) but I would go over the test findings (01:23:16) make sure the exam that was done was (01:23:18) accurate make sure it was quality and (01:23:20) repeat if I needed to and there were (01:23:22) many times when I would find things my (01:23:25) colleagues wouldn't because I'm in what (01:23:27) I would call the questioning pattern (01:23:28) that's my personality another person (01:23:30) would say hey that was an esteemed you (01:23:33) know expert and XY or Z you know why (01:23:35) would you question them well I'm a (01:23:36) questioning pattern that's what I do (01:23:38) yeah so if you're going on a camping (01:23:39) trip each of these nine patterns has a (01:23:42) great positive feature I'm going to (01:23:43) bring the extra jackets and you're not (01:23:45) going to have to go home there are other (01:23:47) patterns if we go through all nine you (01:23:49) know and we' be fun to see where you (01:23:51) might lead from that's what I say and (01:23:53) ultimately when you tap into all nine of (01:23:56) these patterns you start feeling this (01:23:58) freedom of wholeness and it's an ease of (01:24:01) being where you know you're not (01:24:03) imprisoned by it anymore yeah sorry to (01:24:05) interrupt to make sure you are taking (01:24:07) action after watching this video I have (01:24:10) created a free special guides to help (01:24:13) you improve your sleep and reduce (01:24:15) fatigue in my clinical experience most (01:24:19) people who are struggling to sleep are (01:24:21) doing something unconsciously in their (01:24:24) day-to-day life that is negatively (01:24:26) impacting their ability to sleep at (01:24:28) night so in this free guide I share with (01:24:31) you five of my very top tips tips that I (01:24:35) have seen transform the lives of many of (01:24:37) my patients so if you want to get hold (01:24:39) of this guide all you have to do is (01:24:41) click on the link in the description box (01:24:44) below it's fascinating this for me few (01:24:47) things just to share with you um through (01:24:50) the lens of this (01:24:52) competitiveness and I've thought a lot (01:24:54) about this cuz it for me it's been (01:24:56) really night and day to see I was (01:24:58) competitive now I'm not hm this is (01:25:02) interesting I thought it was who I was (01:25:05) but it isn't because I'm no longer it (01:25:08) right it was an Adaptive strategy that (01:25:10) you could relax and release I really I (01:25:13) really believe that to be the case it (01:25:14) was an adaptation (01:25:16) so one thing I've I've noticed with my (01:25:20) children is and look the most important (01:25:23) thing to my wife and I is how we bring (01:25:25) up our children there's there's nothing (01:25:27) more important and we spend a lot of (01:25:29) time and energy and intention thinking (01:25:31) about it and trying to be there be (01:25:33) present with them do things with them uh (01:25:36) praise effort not outcomes all these (01:25:39) kind of things right and we must cover (01:25:41) your four esses uh before we finish (01:25:43) today's conversation at some point for (01:25:45) sure but what I've noticed is (01:25:49) that they seem to really enjoy doing (01:25:52) various things or various Sports (01:25:56) and music and other passions in a way (01:25:59) that I don't think I did (01:26:02) like I had to be really good at them to (01:26:05) enjoy them I had to be able to excel at (01:26:08) them and I've been really conscious to (01:26:11) not put that onto my kids so I see my (01:26:14) kids just enjoy them for the sheer (01:26:16) pleasure of doing them they don't have (01:26:19) to win yeah they don't have to push (01:26:21) themselves and it's been it's been (01:26:23) really interesting with me to TR process (01:26:25) this cuz this is not how I was yeah (01:26:28) exactly exactly well rangan you know as (01:26:31) you're saying this it's so (01:26:33) interesting I think my wife who's also a (01:26:36) barrister like your wife uh we have very (01:26:38) parallel lives um you know when we were (01:26:41) raising our kids we wanted them to (01:26:43) experience this kind of enjoyment of (01:26:45) stuff and yeah so when our son was young (01:26:48) and he took piano he was really enjoying (01:26:51) just playing with the keys and playing (01:26:53) it and his teacher I I overheard him one (01:26:55) of the lessons said when he came in one (01:26:58) day after he' been practicing you during (01:27:00) the week he did it well he did the Peace (01:27:03) well he goes she goes um you did it (01:27:06) perfectly oh I knew you were a good (01:27:10) boy and he quit yeah he quit and we (01:27:14) could not get another piano teacher to (01:27:17) just let him have the joy of music so he (01:27:20) quit then we told him the story that (01:27:22) when he was 12 you know before he (01:27:24) teenager you know he had to pick up (01:27:26) music again and that's just a family (01:27:28) tradition you know which it wasn't but (01:27:31) we said it cuz we wanted somehow from (01:27:33) five onward and we could see he liked (01:27:35) music so he picked up we were doing a (01:27:38) lot of skateboarding and we were at the (01:27:40) skateboard shop next to a music store he (01:27:43) goes I'm almost 13 I said yeah yeah he (01:27:46) goes I guess I have to do that (01:27:47) instrument thing I said yeah so we go to (01:27:49) the music store he picks a guitar it (01:27:52) turns out he falls in love with the (01:27:53) guitar he has a guitar teacher the head (01:27:55) of the school who just lets him love (01:27:57) playing no saying you got to do it right (01:28:00) or wrong no competitive performances (01:28:03) nothing and we couldn't get him to stop (01:28:05) playing now he's a professional musician (01:28:08) you can listen to his music Alex seagull (01:28:10) when he was done with high school he was (01:28:12) so amazing people thought he was amazing (01:28:14) musician he applied to music school got (01:28:16) in with the scholarship to the most (01:28:17) competitive music school and he turned (01:28:20) it down so I called my best friend's (01:28:22) father who was a musician I said I'm so (01:28:24) confused used he loves music he got into (01:28:27) this incredible program and he's he's (01:28:30) turning it down he wants just study (01:28:33) regular educational stuff and my (01:28:35) friend's father goes that's brilliant (01:28:37) and I go what's brilliant about it he (01:28:39) goes if you want him to stop loving (01:28:41) music have him go to music (01:28:44) school I said I am so confused he goes (01:28:47) just let him find who he is as a person (01:28:50) and let the music be expressed through (01:28:52) him not to impressed some music teacher (01:28:56) that he's doing it right and all these (01:28:57) other competitive let him find his own (01:28:59) way which is what he did you can listen (01:29:01) to the outcome so for for Alex seagull (01:29:04) the musician what Caroline my wife and I (01:29:07) were always interested in developing and (01:29:09) and Alex and his his sister Maddie was (01:29:13) an inner (01:29:15) Compass where they could find out what (01:29:17) really mattered to them and then let (01:29:20) that inner Compass stay with them no (01:29:22) matter what was going on so Maddie also (01:29:24) had an has an artistic capacity she (01:29:27) wanted to be literally a drawing artist (01:29:29) she tried that out in high school she (01:29:31) said you know I think I love science (01:29:33) more and now she's getting her doctor (01:29:35) degree in in environmental science and (01:29:38) that's her thing but an inner Compass (01:29:40) allowed the two of them to find their (01:29:42) way in life as adults so I say this (01:29:45) because what you're doing with your kids (01:29:47) by focusing on their inner experience of (01:29:49) effort really lets them build this inner (01:29:51) compass and that's what we want to do (01:29:54) you know the wheel of awareness practice (01:29:56) that you mentioned earlier it's a way of (01:29:58) developing an inner compass for us as (01:30:00) adults or but even for adolescents you (01:30:02) know it's a drawing for younger kids but (01:30:04) what it does is it allows you to say (01:30:06) look you're a human being in a human (01:30:10) body and you have a mind that has this (01:30:13) amazing thing called (01:30:15) Consciousness Consciousness allows you (01:30:17) to have choice and to facilitate (01:30:20) intentional change so we're going to (01:30:23) integrate ious with this practice called (01:30:25) The Wheel of awareness integration means (01:30:28) we're going to differentiate the rim of (01:30:29) things you can be aware of like what you (01:30:31) hear or smell or see from the actual (01:30:35) experience of knowing we call awareness (01:30:38) in the hub and you'll see madd's (01:30:41) drawings actually in this book aware (01:30:43) because she's my artist for all my books (01:30:45) you know and what we're able to do is (01:30:47) then I did this with tens of thousands (01:30:50) of people in person before the viral (01:30:51) pandemic H collected their experience is (01:30:54) in the wheel and to summarize that 100 (01:30:57) pages that we put in that book aware (01:31:00) I'll say this it looks (01:31:03) like pure (01:31:06) awareness is a state where energy which (01:31:09) moves along what's called a probability (01:31:11) distribution curve so when I think of (01:31:13) thought and I say ocean you know it's (01:31:16) way up here as a certainty 100% (01:31:18) certainly I said ocean but if I drop (01:31:20) down to all the words I could say and (01:31:22) you and I share let's say a million (01:31:24) words words it's in a pool of a million (01:31:26) words sitting there before I say them (01:31:28) there in pure awareness is what I'm (01:31:31) going to suggest to you is where it (01:31:32) comes from in that space of what's (01:31:34) called Pure potential is where awareness (01:31:37) arises from now you have a one out of a (01:31:38) million chance of guessing it so now I (01:31:40) say Pacific Ocean or Atlantic Ocean and (01:31:43) all these things I might (01:31:45) say Here's the the (01:31:47) issue with the wheel of wareness (01:31:50) practice people drop into this Timeless (01:31:53) state where they feel whole (01:31:55) they feel love they feel content they (01:31:58) feel (01:31:59) complete the wheel of awareness is (01:32:01) useful (01:32:02) for minor to um medium levels of (01:32:07) depression anxiety and various forms (01:32:10) trauma if it's used carefully even (01:32:13) patients I've had who have you know (01:32:15) terminal illnesses who have the Panic of (01:32:17) dying um they do the wheel when they can (01:32:20) access the Hub which is part of the (01:32:22) practice where you're moving this (01:32:23) singular spoke around the whole Rim part (01:32:26) of it is you bend the spoke of attention (01:32:29) it's a metaphor but an intentional focus (01:32:31) into the Hub itself you experience pure (01:32:34) awareness the wholeness people (01:32:37) experience there the love they (01:32:38) experience there frees them from the (01:32:44) previous belief that oh my God all I am (01:32:46) is my body and if this body is dying (01:32:49) then I in quotes am disappearing when in (01:32:52) fact they come to feel I'm part of a (01:32:54) much larger wholeness to the universe (01:32:58) this body gets a 100 years perhaps to (01:33:00) live in in this existence but I'm just (01:33:04) much bigger than my brain bigger than my (01:33:07) body and that's what happens when you (01:33:10) get to this state of massive openness (01:33:13) now I'll say when you look at what pure (01:33:15) awareness is it's a it's a state of (01:33:17) brain firing that's (01:33:20) extremely not committed it's uncertain (01:33:23) and in that sense the brain becomes more (01:33:26) like a hose more like a conduit rather (01:33:29) than a Constructor of previously learned (01:33:32) configurations so you enter this state (01:33:35) of kind of beginner's mind and openness (01:33:39) maybe more like the effortless being we (01:33:41) had in the (01:33:42) womb and so what happens I think is that (01:33:45) when you come out of the wheel of (01:33:46) awareness practice and your quote (01:33:48) personality of you're rangan I'm Dan you (01:33:51) you come back you know when you come (01:33:53) back to these states of old (01:33:57) identity if you're doing an integrated (01:33:59) process of therapy reflection after the (01:34:02) wheel what happens is you relax those I (01:34:06) call them plateaus these plateaus of (01:34:08) learned identity and instead of just (01:34:11) being a me you become more a living mu (01:34:14) mwe and that feeling of contentment that (01:34:17) you're talking about I think is where (01:34:20) identity as a separate self relaxes yeah (01:34:23) this whole Ness starts to suffuse it (01:34:25) starts to fill every moment when you're (01:34:28) living and sometimes of course you enter (01:34:30) back into personality and I can get (01:34:32) fearful maybe someone else gets angry (01:34:34) someone else gets sad sure we live in a (01:34:37) body so temperament continues to (01:34:38) activate that but with practice and a a (01:34:42) life um you can live with this access I (01:34:45) call it the plane of possibility where (01:34:47) all those possibilities are so with a (01:34:49) colleague Lissa eel and two of my (01:34:51) interns we wrote a chapter for a (01:34:53) textbook of why does mindfulness why (01:34:56) does being present why does this open (01:34:58) acceptance why does it lead to a change (01:35:01) in taras levels the enzyme that repairs (01:35:04) the ends of the chromosomes why does (01:35:06) that state of openness and kindness why (01:35:09) do those lead to a change in the (01:35:11) epigenetic controls that reduce (01:35:14) inflammation why does it lead to (01:35:15) cardiovascular improvements in health (01:35:18) why does it lead to Improvement in (01:35:19) immune system functioning why does it (01:35:20) lower stress in that chapter you'll see (01:35:23) this in the book aware (01:35:25) what we write (01:35:26) about (01:35:28) is that when you can access that open (01:35:31) awareness you call it living with (01:35:34) intention I would say it's living with (01:35:36) intention with receptivity that this (01:35:38) receptive state allows this whole field (01:35:42) within your body to achieve these five (01:35:45) physiological changes and even your (01:35:47) brain becomes in ways we can study (01:35:49) structure and function more integrated (01:35:52) differentiated areas are more linked and (01:35:54) that's in some studies been shown to be (01:35:56) the best correlate of every measure of (01:35:58) well-being we have so the the wheel of (01:36:01) awareness just to sum that up includes (01:36:03) the three pillars that research shows (01:36:06) lead to these five physiological changes (01:36:09) and integration in the brain the growth (01:36:11) of integration in the brain and those (01:36:12) are you (01:36:14) strengthen attention to be more focused (01:36:17) you have awareness become more open and (01:36:20) you make intention Kinder so focused (01:36:24) attention open awareness kind intention (01:36:28) those three pillars of Mind training (01:36:30) allow you to cultivate this deep sense (01:36:33) of well-being that I think is if someone (01:36:36) says oh I've listened to rangan and Dan (01:36:38) what what do I do if you do the wheel of (01:36:40) awareness practice what my colleagues my (01:36:44) students my patients what people in (01:36:47) workshops have experience when they do (01:36:48) this on a regular basis they start (01:36:51) feeling a shift in their personality so (01:36:54) instead of being a prison it moves (01:36:55) towards a playground so instead of all (01:36:57) the insecurities we have they start (01:36:59) feeling this wholeness which I think is (01:37:01) what the whole journey of personality is (01:37:03) all about yeah I mean I I love it so (01:37:06) much (01:37:07) to reflect on (01:37:12) um the way I think about things Dan I'm (01:37:16) I'm always trying to think of root (01:37:19) causes and I'm always trying to simplify (01:37:21) Concepts (01:37:24) and so for a little while (01:37:28) now I've come to the conclusion the (01:37:31) belief that if you're coming from this (01:37:34) place of open (01:37:36) awareness and (01:37:39) intention and (01:37:41) compassion it feels to me that in (01:37:44) essence you're operating from a place of (01:37:47) Love mhm instead of operating from a (01:37:51) place of fear which goes back to how we (01:37:53) start this conversation you're operating (01:37:55) from a place of (01:37:56) intention or you're operating from a (01:37:58) place of (01:38:00) reactivity I don't mean to oversimplify (01:38:03) the complexity of your work um because I (01:38:05) I know it's much more than that but does (01:38:08) any part of that ring true yeah well (01:38:10) here's what I would like to ask you (01:38:12) about um a lot of it rings true and one (01:38:16) part of it I want to really do a little (01:38:18) inquiry with you about okay when you use (01:38:22) the word intention (01:38:24) what do you (01:38:26) mean I guess uh I (01:38:29) mean the opposite of being reactive okay (01:38:33) so other people are doing certain things (01:38:35) I work up feeling a certain way (01:38:37) therefore I'm going to act in a certain (01:38:39) way when I say intention I for example (01:38:43) one one sort of practical thing might be (01:38:47) um like I always have a a bit of routine (01:38:50) in the morning about uh I do various (01:38:53) things (01:38:54) meditation breath work some movement (01:38:57) some journaling you know I I I have a (01:38:59) series of practices that I try and do (01:39:01) each (01:39:01) morning and one of the things I try and (01:39:04) end with is thinking about how I want to (01:39:08) show up in the world that day you know (01:39:11) and I find that when I'm intentional (01:39:12) about my (01:39:13) [Music] (01:39:15) mours and if I say to myself that I want (01:39:17) to be a loving kind and compassionate (01:39:20) person today I'm much more likely to be (01:39:23) that person does that answer your (01:39:24) question it does and so I'm going to (01:39:27) push back a little bit if I could on (01:39:29) your use of the word intention uh I (01:39:32) totally hear you and I resonate with it (01:39:35) completely you know the brain does have (01:39:38) these two states a reactive State and (01:39:40) what's usually called a receptive State (01:39:43) um uh in the reactive State you go to (01:39:46) the five FS fighting back (01:39:49) fleeing freezing meaning you temporarily (01:39:52) paralyze yourself fainting or flopping (01:39:55) meaning you feel helpless there nothing (01:39:56) to do you collapse and then higher up in (01:39:59) the brain those are all subcortical in (01:40:01) the cortex you have fawning where you (01:40:03) try to take care of your aggressor right (01:40:06) so those are the 5S fighting fleeing (01:40:09) freezing flopping or fainting and then (01:40:13) faing so those are reactive that's where (01:40:16) you feel threatened you can't think (01:40:18) clearly and here's my push back on (01:40:22) you the the flopping no it's not (01:40:26) intentional the other three first ones (01:40:29) are intentional meaning the brain is (01:40:33) activating a set of firing patterns that (01:40:36) have a goal directed Behavior to them (01:40:38) that's a way of defining intention okay (01:40:40) interesting a goal directed Behavior so (01:40:44) uh I have sadistic relative in our (01:40:48) family and he intentionally hurts people (01:40:52) okay this person has has stated I'm (01:40:55) intentionally trying to hurt you yeah so (01:40:58) it was a goal directed Behavior to cause (01:41:00) pain that's called a saus well I yeah (01:41:02) first of all I love that and I welcome (01:41:04) that I genuinely do and so I think (01:41:09) perhaps it it's more accurate to (01:41:12) go as you use reactive versus receptive (01:41:16) receptive and within receptivity and (01:41:18) this is this is maybe my own bias and (01:41:21) you've said it beautifully in so many (01:41:22) ways today (01:41:24) receptivity I think accesses his plain (01:41:27) of possibility yeah and I've done this (01:41:29) now literally with over 50,000 people (01:41:31) wow and when people get in that Hub of (01:41:34) that wheel one of the most common terms (01:41:36) they say is love yeah so I think when (01:41:40) people get receptive they're dropping (01:41:42) into that plane of possibility The Hub (01:41:44) of the wheel they're accessing the love (01:41:46) which as a scientist as a physician a (01:41:49) fellow physician what I'll say is this I (01:41:52) think the reason people use the (01:41:53) linguistic term love when they get into (01:41:55) the plain of possibility is all (01:41:58) potentiality is linked there and like (01:42:01) when you love your wife you're linked to (01:42:03) your wife when you love your kids you're (01:42:04) linked to your kids when you love a (01:42:06) sport or you love a book or you love (01:42:08) music you're linked to the music the (01:42:09) sport the book linkage maybe it sounds (01:42:12) reductionistic but I think we use the (01:42:14) linguistic term love for that so there's (01:42:16) massive linkage in that plane of (01:42:18) possibility The Hub of the wheel (01:42:20) now if we can assume that when you (01:42:25) become receptive you open up to the love (01:42:28) that is like the fabric of the universe (01:42:30) yeah and you let that kind (01:42:33) intention become the form of intention (01:42:36) that arises not the S sadist knowing I'm (01:42:40) I'm G to I don't care I'm not kind I'm (01:42:42) going to hurt you that's my intention (01:42:44) how does that feel for you well it it (01:42:46) feels great and and it totally resonates (01:42:50) and I can see what you mean about a kind (01:42:52) intention versus a (01:42:54) a toxic intention yeah right so you can (01:42:57) be intentional in many different ways so (01:42:59) I thought that was a beautiful (01:43:00) explanation we've gone into so many (01:43:03) different areas I wasn't anticipating us (01:43:05) going (01:43:06) into just to make sure that this is um (01:43:11) really practical for people who who've (01:43:13) sort of hopefully been inspired and (01:43:15) they've found something that's connected (01:43:17) with them and thought wow I I want to (01:43:19) learn more I have a few questions for (01:43:20) you yes you mentioned the wheel of (01:43:22) awareness a few times and you've touched (01:43:24) on some of the concepts within it if (01:43:27) people want to learn more about the (01:43:29) wheel of awareness where would you (01:43:31) direct them yeah so you can go to my (01:43:34) website and do it for free Dr Dan (01:43:36) seagull d r d n SI i e gel.com and just (01:43:41) go to resources and you'll find the (01:43:43) wheel great and then there's a little (01:43:45) companion book called becoming aware (01:43:48) that's an extract of the bigger book (01:43:49) aware those would be the two books to (01:43:51) get so for people who want to learn (01:43:53) learn it's like a 21-day challenge like (01:43:55) here's learning the wheel of awareness (01:43:57) in 21 days yeah okay so I can go there (01:43:59) yeah um before we get to the three or (01:44:02) the four s's of (01:44:04) parenting with the understanding that (01:44:06) everyone's different and we all respond (01:44:08) to different things are there (01:44:12) some practices daily practices routines (01:44:16) that um you have seen time and time (01:44:20) again help people tap in to that more (01:44:24) open and aware State yes yes absolutely (01:44:28) and and can you sort of briefly share (01:44:30) some of them so can really understand (01:44:33) what we're talking about here well the (01:44:34) wheel of awareness is something I (01:44:36) encourage all my patients to do I do it (01:44:38) every day um you get this incredible (01:44:42) integrative process and accessing the (01:44:44) spacious receptive State it's like a 20 (01:44:47) minute meditation basically and then (01:44:49) there's a beginning one and then an (01:44:50) intermediate one then an advanced one (01:44:52) and if you want to do it like slow (01:44:53) slowly over 21 days if you're new to it (01:44:56) that becoming aware book would be a good (01:44:57) one to do and although I keep trying to (01:44:59) get to the four piece there's just too (01:45:01) much gold everywhere else yeah (01:45:04) um did you not at one point share an (01:45:08) experience that was it in Baltimore when (01:45:12) you took uh some black skinned folk and (01:45:14) some white- skinned folk and put them to (01:45:16) you know together yeah can you just (01:45:18) share that and how powerful the wheel of (01:45:20) awareness was there because that that (01:45:21) was when I heard that it was profound (01:45:22) for me (01:45:24) yeah and that I think I talk about that (01:45:26) in the book intraconnected I think (01:45:28) that's where it is um yeah there was a a (01:45:32) beautiful beautiful senior congressman (01:45:35) from Baltimore worked in Washington DC (01:45:38) named Elijah Cummings and I had the deep (01:45:41) deep privilege of Elijah asking me to (01:45:43) come to Baltimore where there was a lot (01:45:45) of murder going on and asked me to meet (01:45:49) with group of people who are (01:45:51) African-American black skinned European (01:45:54) descent wh- skinned who had never met (01:45:56) with each other before to see if we (01:45:58) could allow these leaders in their (01:45:59) communities to have some kind of (01:46:02) collaboration so we brought them into a (01:46:05) space and you could feel the tension (01:46:08) people didn't trust each other they were (01:46:09) looking you know with very susp (01:46:11) suspecting eyes and they didn't feel (01:46:14) very comfortable so I guided people (01:46:16) through the wheel of awareness practice (01:46:18) in the room most of them have never (01:46:20) meditated before in their life and in (01:46:23) the practice two things came out when (01:46:27) people finally discussed it was bending (01:46:29) the spoke around into the Hub itself it (01:46:31) just experience this pure awareness this (01:46:33) sense of wholeness the sense of love and (01:46:36) the other was the fourth segment of the (01:46:38) rim which you do after you basically (01:46:41) have done this bending of the spoke (01:46:42) business you then go to the fourth (01:46:44) segment it's a relational sense where (01:46:46) you start to feel the connections with (01:46:50) other people people in the room people (01:46:52) in your community people out in the (01:46:54) country and then to all living beings (01:46:57) and so it builds this kind of connection (01:46:59) and kind (01:47:00) intention so afterwards the feeling in (01:47:03) the room was completely different and (01:47:05) Elijah at that meeting said what did you (01:47:08) just do it's magic you know and people (01:47:10) could now talk to each other and there (01:47:12) was this openness and people were really (01:47:14) vulnerable across you know the racial (01:47:16) divides and he was like blown away and I (01:47:19) said Elijah I don't think it's magic I (01:47:22) think that people live live on their (01:47:23) rims with what they've been taught in (01:47:25) society and some of it's just ingroup (01:47:28) outgroup distinction but when you get to (01:47:30) that Hub when you get to Pure awareness (01:47:33) when did you get to the wholeness that (01:47:35) we're all seeking receptiveness (01:47:37) receptiveness exactly yeah then you see (01:47:41) just like this this Forest Pand populace (01:47:43) that I also talk about in the (01:47:44) interconnected book you see that we're (01:47:46) just in that Forest there's 48,000 (01:47:49) quaking aspirin trees but when you go 6 (01:47:53) in benath the surface you realize (01:47:54) there's one root ball you test the DNA (01:47:57) you realize it's one tree so that that (01:48:01) metaphor really it's actual Forest but (01:48:04) is that all of our bodies are just (01:48:07) manifestations like Panda populace of (01:48:09) the same root ball and once they do the (01:48:11) wheel of awareness and they get (01:48:13) receptive they look with love to the (01:48:16) face of the person sitting next to them (01:48:19) sitting across the room from them that (01:48:20) they previously saw with hate that they (01:48:22) saw with hate or (01:48:23) fear and we're terrified of you know and (01:48:27) Elijah and I just did the rest of the (01:48:29) morning you know working with people now (01:48:32) when they came from this P place of (01:48:33) connection I do this with parliaments (01:48:36) who are having fights about things and (01:48:38) people can get into that receptive space (01:48:40) relatively rapidly not everybody does (01:48:42) but you when you get just enough people (01:48:44) getting there they bring the love into (01:48:46) the room and I say it's like candle (01:48:47) light you know if you have one candle (01:48:49) that's lit then it can light up another (01:48:52) one and it doesn't make the light go (01:48:53) away from the first one and you can sort (01:48:55) of spread the light I love it I (01:48:57) absolutely love it I hope everyone goes (01:48:59) and actually checks it out and does the (01:49:00) wheel of awareness meditation on there (01:49:03) um the four Ps are parenting yeah the (01:49:05) SES yeah the four s's no but the four Ps (01:49:08) there are Caroline Welsh wrote my wife (01:49:10) wrote a beautiful book called The Gift (01:49:12) of presents which talks about the four (01:49:14) piece okay so let's get to the s's so (01:49:17) yeah that's that's that's funny she'll (01:49:19) she'll probably think you were (01:49:20) channeling (01:49:21) her um (01:49:24) yeah so to give like a very short (01:49:26) background so people understand you know (01:49:28) I used to be in Pediatrics I then (01:49:30) trained in Psychiatry and child (01:49:32) psychiatry then I became an attachment (01:49:34) researcher so I'm trained to study (01:49:37) parent child relationships through the (01:49:39) scientific lens of a form of (01:49:41) Developmental science where we study (01:49:43) attachment and one of my main areas of (01:49:45) focus was parents states of mind and (01:49:49) what that means is you can dive into the (01:49:51) mind of you as a parent with something (01:49:53) called the adult attachment interview (01:49:55) and with the most robust power over (01:49:58) anything else even someone watching you (01:50:00) at home for a year we can predict how (01:50:03) your child will be attached to you (01:50:05) whether it's securely or non- securely (01:50:08) and that security of attachment of your (01:50:10) child essentially predicts all sorts of (01:50:13) things like your child's emotional (01:50:15) resilience their capacity for mutually (01:50:17) rewarding relationships with others we (01:50:19) call it an attachment stance or (01:50:21) attachment strategy and security is what (01:50:24) you want to aim for as best you can the (01:50:26) great news from this field of attachment (01:50:28) research which I'm trained in is that it (01:50:31) isn't what happened to you that will (01:50:34) determine if your child is securely (01:50:37) attached to (01:50:38) you it's how you've made sense of what (01:50:42) happened to (01:50:44) you and the importance of that finding (01:50:46) cannot be overstated in other words (01:50:50) people sometimes come to me and say oh (01:50:52) terrible things happened to be my (01:50:53) childhood and I'll never get over it (01:50:55) I'll never be a good parent I'll go wait (01:50:57) a second wait a second the research (01:50:59) shows that I know you're concerned about (01:51:01) that but if you can make sense of your (01:51:04) childhood experiences and how they (01:51:06) affected you you can liberate yourself (01:51:09) from perpetrating that which was done to (01:51:12) you onto your kids so that I wrote up in (01:51:15) a book with my daughter's preschool (01:51:16) director Mary harzel called parenting (01:51:18) from the inside out and once I wrote (01:51:20) that book which starts with the iance of (01:51:23) attachment and now we'll talk about the (01:51:25) 's I could write all the other five or (01:51:27) six or whatever parenting books I've (01:51:29) written where I always say start with (01:51:33) parenting from the inside out because (01:51:34) that's what the research shows make (01:51:35) sense of your own childhood experiences (01:51:38) first yeah and then figure out what do I (01:51:41) do with my kids yeah a that the truth (01:51:43) when that book was first coming out one (01:51:45) of my first teachers was Barry (01:51:46) brazzleton a pediatrician back a while (01:51:49) ago he passed away recently and you know (01:51:53) when I said to Barry when should we give (01:51:55) this to parents he said right away even (01:51:58) when they're pregnant and I'm not sure (01:51:59) pregnancy is the best time but (01:52:01) definitely before yeah yeah you you want (01:52:04) to read it so that being said you know (01:52:07) as an educator and as a you know (01:52:09) therapist for families what I needed to (01:52:12) do is take this entire field of (01:52:14) attachment and make it really (01:52:16) understandable not just for the (01:52:18) academics I was working with but for (01:52:20) parents so basically my son summary of (01:52:23) the entire field of attachment comes (01:52:25) down to four S's and here they (01:52:27) are when you get the first three S's and (01:52:31) if you don't get them any of them the (01:52:34) parent recognizes there's a rupture (01:52:36) there's a (01:52:37) disconnection and readily and reliably (01:52:40) makes a repair so there's no such thing (01:52:43) as perfect parenting there's only (01:52:45) showing up and being present as a parent (01:52:47) with good intention and being aware (01:52:50) being mindful so I say that because (01:52:53) people freak out go oh my I haven't been (01:52:54) doing it if you haven't been doing it (01:52:56) fine now you can make a repair it's (01:52:58) never too late to make a repair so (01:53:00) that's the important place to start and (01:53:03) if you can be kind to your inner (01:53:04) experience because we're all coming (01:53:06) through a hard road yeah you know and (01:53:09) parenting is one of the hardest things (01:53:10) to do in general and these days (01:53:13) especially so the first s is the word (01:53:16) seen s n and when when a child feels (01:53:20) seen it isn't just that you're using (01:53:22) your eyes to see their behavior it means (01:53:25) you're using what I call a mindsight (01:53:27) lens to see their feelings what has (01:53:29) meaning for them what was their (01:53:31) intention what were they remembering the (01:53:34) inner nature of their mental lives is (01:53:36) what I mean by the word seen and it's (01:53:38) very clear from the research parents who (01:53:41) take the time and develop the skills (01:53:44) because they're learnable skills to see (01:53:46) the inner life of the child have (01:53:48) children who develop secure attachment (01:53:51) okay second second s soothed what this (01:53:56) means is your child could be distressed (01:53:58) they've gone through what I call a (01:53:59) window of Tolerance they're in chaos (01:54:01) they're in rigidity they're shut down (01:54:03) you know those moments they're not in (01:54:05) this kind of integrated flow and at that (01:54:07) moment you yourself because of a set of (01:54:10) neurons in you called mirror neurons (01:54:11) which should have been called I think (01:54:13) sponge neurons you sponge in your kids (01:54:15) distress so their distress may make you (01:54:17) distressed so if you don't have your (01:54:20) presence there or your receptive you may (01:54:22) become reactive even as they become (01:54:24) reactive which just amplifies all the (01:54:27) reactivity so soothing your child is (01:54:31) more than oh let me just you know try to (01:54:33) put a Band-Aid on their wound it's (01:54:35) really giving them the comfort that (01:54:38) allows them to see that I as your (01:54:40) son can be as distressed as I can be and (01:54:44) you don't leave (01:54:46) me you stay present with me you're able (01:54:49) to hold a space for my distress (01:54:53) and in that connection you (01:54:55) establish ah my nervous system which is (01:54:58) immature is able to calm down and that's (01:55:01) what we mean by (01:55:02) soothing don't forget there's no such (01:55:05) thing as perfect parenting you may not (01:55:06) see your child all the time you we don't (01:55:09) don't sue them all the time but to be (01:55:11) able to do that and say wow that pushed (01:55:13) my hot button I was having a hard time (01:55:15) when you were screaming yelling like (01:55:16) that let me try to come back and soothe (01:55:18) you I'm so sorry I couldn't do it then (01:55:20) you can make a repair repair repair and (01:55:23) the the fourth the third s before the (01:55:25) fourth of security the third s is safe (01:55:29) so safe of course is keeping your child (01:55:31) protected from injury but it's also not (01:55:34) being a source of emotional (01:55:37) fear where you know and I say this in (01:55:40) all my books there are times when you (01:55:42) know I would flip my lid and start (01:55:43) screaming or say ridiculous things or (01:55:45) whatever and I would terrify my kids I (01:55:48) had to make a repair after that kids are (01:55:51) meant to be kept safe by their (01:55:53) attachment figures their parents and if (01:55:55) we have unresolved trauma or unresolved (01:55:58) loss the research is very clear we're (01:56:00) more prone to doing things that we don't (01:56:03) even want to do yeah that are (01:56:06) unintentional that terrify our (01:56:09) kids and even when we alter our own (01:56:11) State because we're flipping out that (01:56:13) can be terrifying if we get drunk that (01:56:15) can be terrifying we're yelling at our (01:56:16) spouse that can be terrifying and the (01:56:18) other ones that are obvious like abuse (01:56:20) neglect yeah you know so a wide range of (01:56:24) what creates non-safety and I don't mean (01:56:27) a kid wants ice cream before dinner you (01:56:28) say no and they go you make me mad you (01:56:31) make me I want I no you don't this is (01:56:33) not about just giving them everything (01:56:35) they want it's about not terrorizing (01:56:37) them yeah setting limits is extremely (01:56:40) important for kids when they have this (01:56:42) and when they're not there there's a (01:56:43) repair made when there's a rupture and a (01:56:46) reliable and relatively um rapid (01:56:50) way then a child develops security which (01:56:53) is this sense of wholeness this sense of (01:56:55) resilience the sense of I can do this (01:56:58) and you know we're still on a life of (01:57:00) you know do or die you know in this (01:57:01) world outside the womb so no matter how (01:57:04) great our parenting is life is still (01:57:06) hard but security of attachment gives (01:57:08) the best kind of (01:57:10) resilience that we can give our kids and (01:57:14) the great news is that if you've had a (01:57:16) really hard childhood (01:57:18) yourself dive into parenting From the (01:57:20) Inside Out Mary and I wrote that to be a (01:57:23) big (01:57:24) hug and it's a guide to saying how do I (01:57:27) actually make sense in my life do that (01:57:29) book it's a workbook basically and the (01:57:32) great news is and this is you know I was (01:57:34) trained as a narrative scientist when (01:57:36) our narrative process literally makes (01:57:38) sense in the two ways that we mean it (01:57:40) makes sense meaning what's the logical (01:57:42) way my childhood affected me but makes (01:57:44) sense as in I sense my body I feel these (01:57:48) things you're able to integrate memory (01:57:50) into things that were terrifying before (01:57:52) and you integrate it and you make sense (01:57:54) of your life and that's how you come to (01:57:56) allow your personality to relax and stop (01:57:59) being a prison become more like a (01:58:00) playground it allows you to be more (01:58:02) receptive with kind intention so (01:58:04) intention for sure that's kind um and (01:58:07) that's how we want to bring our presence (01:58:10) to our kids and I love that Dan I mean (01:58:12) you just set the stage for a second (01:58:15) conversation at some point in the future (01:58:16) because i' love to dive into parenting (01:58:18) but I think that's really (01:58:20) helpful you want to help your kid kids (01:58:22) feel seen soothed safe and when you can (01:58:27) do that they will also feel secure (01:58:30) absolutely I love that message that (01:58:32) there's no such thing as perfect (01:58:34) parenting if you make a mistake you can (01:58:37) take responsibility and own up and (01:58:41) apologize and repair I think that's a (01:58:43) really nice message yeah and then really (01:58:46) broadening it (01:58:47) out really this idea that (01:58:52) if you can make sense of your life (01:58:55) history in the ways that you've (01:58:58) described yes that helps you become a (01:59:00) better (01:59:01) parents but frankly it helps you become (01:59:03) a better human being you're going to be (01:59:06) a better partner a better friend a (01:59:08) better colleague you're going to be less (01:59:12) reactive and more receptive absolutely (01:59:15) that's that's exactly it so Dan for the (01:59:19) person who heard us talk and who's (01:59:23) interested in exploring more yes there's (01:59:25) your brand new book personality and (01:59:27) wholeness in therapy integrating nine (01:59:30) pattern of Developmental Pathways and (01:59:32) clinical practice we've touched on some (01:59:34) of the concepts I know it's a lot deeper (01:59:36) in that but for someone who feels lost (01:59:38) in life who doesn't know where to go (01:59:41) next who feels that they're struggling (01:59:43) but senses some Hope from our (01:59:47) conversation today (01:59:49) yeah what words of advice would you give (01:59:51) to them words of advice you (01:59:55) know there's a great quote from the (01:59:58) wonderful poet and singer songwriter um (02:00:01) Leonard (02:00:02) Cohen that uh I took Alex seagull my son (02:00:06) Alex you know to see one of my heroes (02:00:09) which is also one of his Heroes and it (02:00:11) was fortunately obviously before he (02:00:12) passed away recently and the lines go (02:00:15) like (02:00:16) this ring the bells that still can (02:00:20) ring forget your perfect (02:00:24) offering there's a crack in (02:00:28) everything that's where the light gets (02:00:33) in Dan it's been a real pleasure talking (02:00:36) to you thank you for coming on the show (02:00:38) thank you it's been really wonderful to (02:00:40) be here with you rangan really great if (02:00:42) you enjoyed that conversation then I (02:00:44) think you are really going to enjoy this (02:00:46) one the only challenge I think with (02:00:48) addictions is that if you can't think (02:00:51) greater than how you feel your life will (02:00:54) stay the same yeah the solution then is

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